I guess I should maybe reduce my conversations. I don't know if I am the one who speaks harshly or if people perceive me wrongly. Are people that sensitive that they cry so badly to the extent that they literally have hiccups, even when I was not being harsh or rude but just talking? Maybe I should reduce my conversations or completely stop talking.
Am I really rude just because my decibel is high, even when I am just talking? Or just because I have a straight face without any expression when I am serious about something? Maybe I should just reduce engaging with people because, at some point, they are hurt. But it is just normal stuff I say, and when I get to know that they are hurt, such a small thing causes me to doubt myself once again—that I am someone who is meant to be alone. Because every time I try to engage with someone, the opposite person gets hurt.
I guess I should stop this all at once, and just be that girl who thought she should not have any friends and silently complete her UG being in the shadows. I just don't want to hurt people just by saying what's on my mind, even though I was not even showing my 10% anger.
If I hurt you that much, don't worry; I will stop talking to you by reducing my conversations with you. At last, you won't even notice that we stopped talking, and you will just be thinking that we lost connection. But in reality, I stopped our conversations. I don't want to hurt anyone, and at the same time, I don't want to hurt myself. I am better off alone.
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The Unsaid Thoughts
PoetryThis book is a collection of my free verse poetry, written in both Tamil and English. I usually write when I'm sad, and it helps me overcome those feelings. Writing poetry is my coping mechanism. These poems are my raw emotions and thoughts, unspoke...
