Dreamers logs

A Conversation with Universe

{It started with a bad day. Then I take a nap. But all I see is black. I'm still feeling sad and angry in my sleep, so I decided to talk to myself. Then I hear a voice. I call her Universe.}

Bonnabel:
I've got to be different from everyone else. So why am I still here? Why...?

Universe:
You think you deserve something better, but the truth is, you're not special.

Everyone feels like they're meant for more, but most don't get there. The world doesn't owe you anything, and it certainly doesn't care how hard you fight.

You're just one person in a sea of millions.

Bonnabel:
Maybe. But I swear I've seen something no one else has. The fact that I have no talent and keep failing high school over and over again must be a sign, that I'm not meant for this world and am meant for another.

I just have to keep waiting...

{I sit on the floor, curling into a ball.}

Universe:
{Laughs loudly}

HA! Waiting?! For what?

You think some higher power is just going to swoop in and save you? You're not some chosen one. You're struggling because you're stuck in the real world, not some fantasy you've dreamed up.

The truth is, most people like you, who refuse to play by the rules, end up lost, with nothing to show for it.

You can't keep waiting for a miracle. Time doesn't wait for anyone.

Bonnabel:
Well... then what else is there to do?

Universe:
Do what you must to survive. But don't expect anything to change. You can try to carve your own path, but it won't be easy.

You'll hit walls, face rejection, and feel like you're sinking. The world doesn't care about your dreams or your struggles. You'll just have to keep fighting, even if it feels pointless.

And if you fail? There's no one to blame but yourself.

Bonnabel:
So... I have to keep going forward even though everything's bad? Really?!

Universe:
Yes.

There's no other choice. You either keep moving, even when it feels unbearable, or you let everything break you.

The world won't stop pushing against you, so you have to push back. There's no guarantee things will get better.

But if you stop, if you give up, you lose everything.

Bonnabel:
Tell me honestly, Universe.

Will good things happen for me eventually? Or will they fade like everything else in my life...?

Universe:
Honestly?

Good things might happen, but nothing lasts forever. Life is a series of highs and lows, and you can't control how long the good times last. They might fade, just like everything else.

But that doesn't mean you won't find meaning in them, even if they're brief. The real question is: will you keep going when things inevitably fade, or will you let the losses define you?

Bonnabel:
No... I can't give up now. I won't do it.

Universe:
Good. Don't give up. It's the only way to prove that you're stronger than the world's weight on your shoulders. Keep pushing through the mess, through the uncertainty, because in the end, the ones who keep going are the ones who actually have the chance to change their story.

Just don't expect it to be easy, though, nothing in life is free.