komahina / hinakoma // oneshots

Your Fault. - Angst ~ ☆

Massive TW for detailed self harm + suicide/implied suicide.

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I lay in my bathroom, bleeding.

My arms, legs, stomach.

Everywhere.

There were large gashes, scrapes scattered around my body.

I shakily picked up the boxcutter.

This is all your doing, by the way.

I pressed down on a large patch of my skin.

I dragged the blade over it, being careful to not touch my pants.

Blood was spewing out of the now gash in my leg.

None of this would have happened if you just told me, by the way.

Blood was everywhere.

Everywhere.

This was it.

The final stretch.

I picked up the bottle of pills in my sink.

I would still be here if you just admitted it, by the way.

I shakily opened them, staring at them.

It will all be over soon.

I place the bottle on my lips.

The pills fall into my mouth, one by one.

Good thing I prepared some water.

None of this was about to happen if it wasn't for you, by the way.

I drank the whole thing, the water and pills slipping down my throat.

This was really it.

Goodbye, everyone.

Besides you.

You don't deserve a goodbye.

You made me say goodbye.

I didn't want to.

This is all your fault, Hajime.

a/n:

based off of a personal fic im writing rn yay..? anyway this is basically a vent, i sh today after like a month or 2 and im very ashamed of myself waaaaaa, anyway stay safe and drink orange juice!