Saviour

Chapter 3

Rixen's P.O.V

I don't know what happened there, I just know that the girl I would call mine one day is crying on my chest. It was an amazing feeling to have her in my arms. She was tiny compared to my height so I had to bend down a little so she could put her arms around my neck. I nuzzled my face in her neck and I swear I can stay here forever. I don't know for how long we were in each others arms I just know that I want these hugs everyday. Everyday when I wake up, when I'm going to sleep, when I'm sad, when I'm happy, in short, all the time. We were still hugging when suddenly all of her weight was on me. I didn't know what happened. I tried shaking her but nothing happened. Her eyes were closed but she was looking like just an angel. My angel. Is she okay? Shit. Why isn't she responding? Is she.. did she black out? I don't know. I picked her up bridal style and started making my way towards my car. She is so light, she needs to eat more. Focus Rixen!

It took me sometime to open the door, with her still in my arms, blacked out. I laid her down in the back seat. I always put a blanket in my trunk so I picked it up and placed it on her. She looks so peaceful. I kissed her forehead and making my way towards her cheeks, I kissed them. When my lips got to hers they brushed a little and it is like her pouty lips are begging me to kiss them but I can't do this to her or Em for that matter. It was so hard to resist her lips but I retreated from her and sat in the driving seat. I was about to ignite the engine when my phone started ringing, I ignored it at first but it kept ringing so I picked up without looking at the caller Id.

"Hello" I said in a grumpy tone because I was angry that the caller kept bugging me. I started looking at my knuckles and dude they were really busted, it doesn't hurt though but I should clean it up.

"Rixen! Where are you? You said you'll be here at 11 and it is 1:30 now! I'm really pissed off right now, and I'm tired so come to me like now." I heard a loud voice shouting in phone.

"Fuck" I cursed under my breath.

"I can't come now. So maybe raincheck?" I asked sheepishly, looking at the dark parking lot in front of me.

"Raincheck? Raincheck, Rixen? Seriously? We've been doing that for the past I don't know how many months, okay? Rixen sometimes I just need you but you're never there." That shrill voice was turning soft. She was right though.

"I'm always there for you." I said in a soft voice too.

"No, Rixen! You're never there, yes, you're with every other girl but me. I'm not asking too much but sometimes I just need you to hold me in your arms, kiss my forehead, and cuddle with me. Now I think the only physical relation we have is sex. Sometimes I just need my boyfriend to be here with me." Michelle was hurting and sobbing because of me. Which broke my heart a little bit.

I know I shouldn't do this to her but that's all I do. Every time we make plans I raincheck to spend time with someone else. I never cheated on her like go on the second base but I never spend time with her and right now guilt is filling me up. But it is not like I wanted her to be my girlfriend, at first I tried to tell her but she never gets the hint.

"Michelle," I said in a calm voice, "I will be there in 10, love you."

"Really? Love you too. I'll be prepared." She said in a happy tone. The change in her mood formed a small smile on my face. I do care for her and sometimes I do wish I could love her like everyone expects me to but some things are just not meant to be. I hope Em realizes that soon enough because I don't really have the heart to keep telling her the same thing over and over again.

Now I don't know what to do. There is a girl laying in my car's back seat, whom I desperately want to call mine and there this girl I have to meet, whom I've been calling mine for past 2 years.