My Mafia Husband

Lost in the moment

"You're right, princess. Were should act like adults and communicate this, instead of arguing and being stubborn. So, you go first, tell me why you wanted to drug me and run away?"

I hesitate to speak at first...hearing his question..but I just know that he will find out sooner or later ...he is as stubborn as I am, so I decide to speak up...

-Because I was afraid ...everyone was speaking so bad of you, I didn't know you before, I never saw you or met you. I just heard rumors about you..you doing stuff... bad stuff! So I got scared...and a little pill wouldn't hurt you, right?

He winces again as you talk about the rumors you had heard, knowing that they were all true. He rubs the back of his neck nervously

"I get it princess. I understand being afraid. I know you've probably heard lots of bad rumors about me, I'm pretty sure people talked about how dangerous I am, how I do criminal stuff, how I'm a cold and scary killer . That's mostly all true , princess."

The fact of him killing people hit me in the heart like I got stabbed a million times, my body got goosebumps just by thinking how many people he had murdered...as I try to find the words to speak

-That's mostly all of it true? So it's true? So you really kill...people! And you don't even care?

He nods, knowing that there's not escape answering that question truthfully.
He's quiet for a moment, trying to figure out exactly how he wanted to word this

"I...I do things like that sometimes, princess , yeah. I do. Sometimes kill people. I have to, sometimes , to keep people in line.
In this life of crime, there are people who don't ...

I interrupt him before he can finish talking

-I don't like that...the way you think...the way you speak, so calmly, about you killing people...

"I know you don't, princess, but it's the life I chose. I know that I sound like a damn terrible person but I'm not all bad, alright? I know you're probably scared by all this though, huh?

I look at him in disbelief and I shake my head

-Scared?? What do you mean if I'm scared by all of this? You can even ask if I'm scared of this? Of course I'm scared, how can you ask me that?!

He sighs, knowing that there's question was a stupid one

"You're right, princess, that was a dumb thing to say. Of course you're scared by this . You've never lived this life before, and it's a dangerous one, one of murder, I get it, princess. But I promise I won't let you get hurt alright? You have to trust me!

Just when I think about what if someone tried to hurt me or something worse hits me ...

-You understand that the people whom you had killed, what if...

I try to speak but the words won't come out of my mouth...the fact that someone may try to kill me ...is overwhelming

-what if, they come after me, try to hurt me, or worse...they try to kill me?

"I know that alright. I know there's lots of possibilities of someone trying to hurt you or get revenge for something I've done. I know my enemies may come after you, but I'll do anything, to make sure that doesn't happen, princess . I'll kill anyone who tries to come for you, I swear I will."

- You'll do anything? I reply with no hesitation...

Yes, princess. Hell, I'd give my own life if it would be just to make sure you'd be safe."