Until Death do us apart(Wattys 2015)

Chapter 6- Reality

I was guilty, too guilty. I regreted every last word I said to Damon, and It was reminding me everytime by a silent stab in the stomach.

When we got to the hospital, I was ashamed. He wanted to help me but I blew him off. Every sense of me was getting hightened bit by bit but before I could stop it incontrollable sobs were taking me over the edge.

" D... Damon I'm really sorry" I said between sobs

" No Bianca, You know what I'm sorry about? My life and everything in it. You are the best thing that happened so far and I can't believe you blew me off. And you know what? It damn hurts! I can't be that person again! My Ex-Girlfriend,Meredith right? She stabbed me in the heart, manipulated me and controlled me until she was tired of me and drained every last piece of my heart. I can't suffer through that again. You hear me! I just can't take it anymore" He blasted

I was astonished. His words flew like a hurricane, a deadly one. I just wanted to hug him and take him into my arms. I wanted to make him believe that everything was going to be alright, but how could I? If I couldn't even believe anything myself.

But I didn't give a damn. Soon enough I was hugging him so tight that his circulation was almost cut. And I cupped his face with my hands.

" I'm sorry that Cruelness appeared in your life, and trust me  If I could I would take every splinter out of your heart. But what I'm dealing with right now is so strong, that I can't even start describing it to you about it.And that's why I have to let you go Okay?  Give me some time to clear up my mind. It's been a long day and you should rest too. Goodbye damon" I raced without a breath.

I was already out the car heading to the Chemotherapy room but I couldn't get one thing off my mind. Damon. Damon was all I thought about. And I swear I saw a tear fall from his eye as I got out of the car, and it broke my heart to see him like that.

I don't know what's happening to me. Am I falling for him? No I can't be. We don't even... stick. Ugh I was really confused but I tried to push my thoughts away as my doctor came in the room.

"How are you doing Bianca? Cheryl asked

"Good, how about yourself?

" I'm good thank you. So let's get the scanner started and see how we're doing!"

This was It. This Chemotherapy session wasn't like the normal one's. It would verify if the tumor shrunk or not. I was shaking while the scanner scanned me. The only time I got so nervous was when I presented the Duke University test last spring, even though I didn't check if I was accepted yet. But this? This was serious. It was a life threatening  scan and I thought I was going to pass out.

The doctor asked me to sit down and wait for the results to come out but I couldn't sit. How can you just wait there and sit when your life is probably about to change? I know I can't. So I went outside and let the cold air into my system. Maybe It's for the best I thought. Maybe I should face death so I can live my life in peace. Maybe I'm better off without suffering everyday with this extremely heavy weight of depression on my shoulders. But No! I couldn't leave Damon not after what he said to me. When I first saw him an invisible spark flew among us, and I thought it could change me. But now I'm not so sure, I just proved myself with damon what a hard person I am.

I went back in trying to face my worst fears. But I am brave, people can sense that around me. Nothing can stop me now as I'm roaming around the hallways.

"Hello Bianca" someone's voice I recognised by heart said behind me.

" Grayson?" I asked as I turned around

" Grayson! What are you doing here"

" To retreive what is mine, I guess. You don't belong here, and I can see that. So what am I doing here Bianca? I have a Limousine waiting for us outside at the moment and a perfect planned wedding in Miami. Figure it out." He snapped back at me. And before I knew it he tried to grab hold of my arm but I backed away in time.

"What the hell do you think you're doing! Going to a wedding with YOU? I don't think so"

" It is not a matter of choice It's a matter of fact. So you better come with me, Otherwise your parents will be quite upset with you. And we all know how that goes."  He said slightly hurt

I slapped him across the face. " Don't you dare bring my parents in to this!" I said with teary eyes" Never in my life am I coming to you!"

" Very well then. And do expect a suprise from me in a couple of months. You can't make me back off. Ever" He said as he went away.

Never in my life had I been so enraged with somebody so selfish as Grayson. My pulse was racing with anger but my soul was lost in a dark well without hope. I couldn't go any further with day so I ran. I ran until my feet gave out, I ran until my heart was crashed.

I entered my appartment crashing into my pillow and decorating it with tears that only expressed anger. I was torn, and I could do nothing about it. Just staring into the nightsky hoping that all of this was a bad and meaningless dream. But it was reality.

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