As I sat on my bed with my feet kicking in the air–but occasionally stopping–I continued to hold the phone against my ear and talk into it. The other side of the phone was pure silence, but I took note that the silence gave the fact that the other person was listening.My mom always listens.
"So yea.. That's pretty much what my freshman year of college looks like so far.. Pretty crazy but yet uneventful." I spoke enthusiastically, occasionally looking down at my fingernails and brushing them against my bedspread.
"Sounds like you had a very interesting day." I heard her reply, but the quality was still slightly poor. My mom was a fairly middle-aged woman in her 50's, but she is still a very sweet woman.
"Well– I'm gonna go eat a little something for lunch.. I'll call you back soon."
"Okay sweetheart, I love you."
"I love you too, Buh bye."As I hung up the phone, almost immediately, my boyfriend entered the room and slung his backpack on the floor. He had a mixed amount of expressions on his face; mad, upset, and disappointed.
How do I know this? I just do. No questions asked.
"What's up with you? You look agitated.." I spoke gently, trying my best to not aggravate him anymore.
As I made eye contact with him, he sighed and rubbed his temples. Almost as if he was trying to come up with a way to say something.
I knew something was up with the way he was acting. But I kept my cool."I've been thinking about something today. And I think it's the best for both of us."
Oh no. Not that. Anything but that.
But maybe–"We should break up." He spoke softly in my ear with despair, just loud enough so I could hear him.
My breath caught in my throat and my heart dropped to my stomach as I heard his words, becoming completely humbled and quiet from the soft-spoken but yet heartbreaking words. His words felt like a stab to the chest.. And it almost made me overwhelmed with the feeling of him telling me the four words I never wished to hear in my lifetime.From what felt like hours, my voice never found its way to escape. I felt like passing out from the overwhelming feeling.. Yet I never did falter.
"We.. What?" I said finally, my mouth still trying to find the right words to say. I was still unsure if he was serious or not, but I wanted to know. He wanted to break up? Right as it was time for our anniversary? What kind of boyfriend does that?
He sighs and takes his fingers off his temples, a small frown on his lips.I let out a quivering sigh, feeling as if I was going to cry.
But I didn't. I couldn't. Not in front of him."Listen, I'm sorry, Cade.. i just.. I can't deal with this anymore." He responds, his voice laced with sorrow and reassurance. I could tell that he didn't want to do this.. Like someone was forcing him to do this.
He hated the feeling of having to do this..
And I hate seeing him like this."It's your mother again, isn't it?" I state bluntly, searching for an answer so I can figure things out.
His gaze searches for mine, and mine searches for his. He nods slightly, quickly looking away from me in despair once again. I could tell he already hated doing this.Once he nodded, my feelings started to mix; mad, sad, overwhelmed, irritated, disappointed.. And so many other things. But I can't quite put my finger on how I'm feeling at the moment.
So many things have happened in the past few days. From my grandparents passing, to my parents anniversary, and my very own anniversary with my now.. Ex.. boyfriend.
Maybe it wasn't my happily ever after.
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Our Distant Love
RomanceA Mystery/Romance Texting Novel. ━━ Cadence Wells, a college student who is in her 20's, top of her classes and a very well educated woman. Mostly known as the "Queen B" with every boy wrapped around her finger. William Rodriguez, a handsome youth (...