Hearts on the line

chapter 32

chapter 32

We all jumped at the loud voice that boomed from behind me. "What the hell is going on here?"

I turned around and saw Jin standing in the doorway with more anger in his eyes than I've ever seen. He looked down at the palm I still had open with the baggie and his eyes grew dark with anger.

He turned his attention to the guys, "What did I say about loitering around here?"

"You don't own this alleyway, it's public property," one of the guys leaning against the wall scoffed.

Jin stalked up to him and stared him down, "as much as I want to call the cops because I'm sure they'd love to charge you, idiots, with possession, I think it's time I deal with you guys myself." He was rolling up the sleeves of his shirt as the guys stood there shell shocked.

Jin was a big guy and while he looked scary when he was mad, most people knew that he was the biggest softie. But these guys didn't know that.

"Alright, Alright!" the guy leaning against the wall put his hands up, "we're leaving." Jin and I watched them start walking away sluggishly.

They disappeared around the corner and felt anxious now that I didn't have a buffer. I was terrified to turn around but I didn't have much of a choice because Jin snatched the bag from my hand and stormed inside.

I squeezed my hand into a fist and followed Jin. The staff looked at me with nervous eyes when I walked in and I felt like I was back in elementary school being told to go to the principle's office after hitting a boy who pulled my hair.

Jin appeared from the employee washroom with his hands empty. "Office, now," was all he said to me.

I didn't even get a chance to close the door behind me when he started yelling. "Was what I was saying to you going one ear and out the other?! Do you have any idea how dangerous that drug was that was in your hand?!"

My bottom lip trembled as I willed myself not to cry as he kept yelling.

"Haerin, what on earth would possess you to want to take those pills? Those pills could ruin your life!"

I couldn't sit still anymore and yelled back, "don't you think I know that!" Tears that I couldn't hold back anymore streamed down my face, "it just hurts so much in here," I pointed to my chest, "that I just wanted to pain to stop even if it was just temporary."

Ever since the breakup, I tried to keep a neutral face in front of everyone. I didn't want them to see how vulnerable I was or that I was weak for crying, but I couldn't keep it inside anymore.

Jin's expression softened as he walked around his desk and hugged me tight which made me cry even harder. "I know I shouldn't have taken it, but I just wanted to numb the feeling," I sobbed into his shoulder. "I just want it to stop."

"I know you're going through a hard time," his voice came out smooth and comforting, "but this isn't how you deal with it." He pulled away and looked me in the eyes, "sure, it'll make you forget for a little bit, but it won't help you in any way, Haerin."

He sat back on his desk, "I was going through a hard time back then too. I used to be involved in hard drugs like that and I was messed up for a long time." He looked down at his hands, "I know how bad drugs can derail your life. I've been there and I barely made it out. That's why I'm so hard on you guys to stay away from it."

"I didn't know," I replied in a quiet voice.

He sighed, "it's not something I advertise but if it's going to help you kids stay away from drugs then I'll tell you anything you want to know."