see clearly

And then I realized my teacher was right about one thing, if you're not sure about the answer move on. Valuable time was wasted, my heart hurts my mind is in the fog. All alone nobody around to ask for help nor to vent to. I understand heart break can be seriously painful but I never knew how bad it was till I experienced it. You're not who I fell in love with your something worse.

You're what I would go to my dad about shaking, sobbing asking him to get the monster out from under my bed. And people say the worst thing is seeing the love of your life falling inlove with somebody else, no it's the worst thing to fall in love with somebody who would never stop disappointing you. I went to my therapist yesterday. She told me imagine being bit by a snake and instead of trying to help yourself heal & recover from the poison, you are trying to catch the snake to find out the reason it bit you and prove to it that you didn't deserve that. But the difference is, I can't change the past.

Wondering why only will keep me stuck there, the snake already hurt me, bruised me poisoned me, I won't let it keep me stuck. But then again that bite and pain still leaves a mark no matter what. Life lesson learned never fall inlove with the same person twice because the second time they're going to be a whole different person. I didn't want this to be a lesson I wanted this to be love. You moved on though so I can do the same. A woman can do as much as a man can do right ?

Heart break changes people the most, and the hardest.