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I can't breathe

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I can't breathe.

Sitting across from Aiyanna, my chest feels like it's caving in. My hands tremble on my lap, and the air feels thick, heavy, like it's trying to choke me. All I can do is stare at her, my best friend, the one person who's been my constant even when everything else fell apart.

Her face is blank, but I know better. Even after three years apart, I can still read her. Aiyanna doesn't need words to tell me how she's feeling. That stillness? That terrifying calm? It's fury. The kind of anger that burns slow and deep.

She's pissed.

I glance at Omari, hoping for... I don't know, a lifeline, maybe? But his jaw is tight, his shoulders stiff. He's just as scared as I am. When his eyes meet mine, I see the decision flicker there. He's going to say it.

And just like that, the dam breaks.

"I'll start," he says, his voice low and steady, though I can hear the weight behind it. He sits up straighter, looking directly at Aiyanna. "I met Zaire three years before I met you."

Aiyanna doesn't flinch. Doesn't blink. Her eyes stay locked on him, but I can feel her hurt radiating off her like heat.

"We were in love," Omari continues. "For two and a half years, she was my world. Everything I did, everything I wanted... it all revolved around her." He pauses, his hands curling into fists on the table. "But I messed it up. I made a mistake, and it all fell apart."

His words hang in the air, heavy and suffocating.

Aiyanna shifts slightly, her lips pressing into a thin line, but she doesn't speak. She just waits, and for some reason, that silence is worse than if she'd started yelling.

I can't take it anymore.

"When I saw him walk into that diner with you..." My voice cracks, and I have to take a shaky breath before I can keep going. "I didn't know what to do. I froze. I thought maybe-maybe it wasn't him. Maybe I was imagining it."

Aiyanna's eyes dart to me, but her expression doesn't change. Her stillness is unbearable.

"You looked so happy, Aiyanna," I whisper, tears burning my eyes. "I hadn't seen you like that in so long. And it had been years since I'd been with Omari. Years. I thought... if I just ignored him, pretended like it didn't happen, things would stay fine."

The tears come faster now, spilling over before I can stop them. My vision blurs, and I cover my face with my hands, trying to get a grip, but it's useless. Everything I've been holding in-the guilt, the pain, the fear of losing her-comes crashing down.

"But things started unraveling," I sob, my words coming out in gasps. "And I didn't know how to fix it. I didn't know what to do."

My shoulders shake, and I cry harder than I have in years.

The silence stretches on, suffocating me, and I force myself to look up.

Aiyanna is staring at me, her face still blank. No tears. No anger. Nothing.

It's like looking at a stranger.

"I'm sorry," I choke out, my voice barely above a whisper. "I'm so sorry."

Aiyanna leans back in her chair, her hands folding neatly in her lap. She takes a deep breath, her gaze shifting between Omari and me.

When she finally speaks, her voice is calm. Too calm.

"Is there anything else?"

Omari exhales sharply, like he's bracing himself for impact. His eyes are locked on Aiyanna now, but I can feel the weight of his words pressing down on me before he even speaks.

"We didn't sleep together," he says, his voice low and steady. "But something happened."

The words hit like a slap.

"What?" Aiyanna's voice is sharp, her tone the first crack in the armor she's been wearing since this conversation started.

Omari leans forward, his elbows on the table, his head hanging slightly as if he can't bear to look at her. "That night at the restaurant-the double date. In the bathroom..."

I stare at him in horror, my body going cold. *Why would he say that?*

Aiyanna's eyes flick to me, piercing, waiting for confirmation or denial, but all I can do is shake my head, my throat too tight to speak.

"It wasn't what you think," Omari rushes to add, his hands clenching into fists on the table. "We didn't-nothing like that happened. But there was a moment. A moment where I realized I... I wasn't over her."

The diner feels impossibly small, the walls closing in around us. My pulse pounds in my ears as I watch Aiyanna's face. She doesn't move. Doesn't blink. Just sits there, her expression unreadable.

"And you told me," I whisper, my voice trembling as I finally find the words, "you told me why you messed up before."

Omari turns to me, his jaw tightening.

"You told me everything, Omari. And what did I do? I ran." My voice cracks, and I can feel the tears threatening to spill again, but I force myself to hold it together. "I didn't fight for us. I didn't try to fix it. I just ran."

The table falls silent, the air heavy with tension and unspoken words.

Aiyanna's voice breaks through the quiet, soft and trembling. "Are you still in love with each other?"

Her question cuts straight through me, and I freeze, my mind racing but unable to find an answer.

Omari doesn't speak either. His mouth opens slightly, but no sound comes out.

The silence stretches, unbearable.

Aiyanna's eyes dart between us, and for the first time, I see it. Her mask cracks just slightly, and behind it is something raw, something that feels like despair.

But just as quickly, her face goes blank again. The emotions vanish, buried beneath that practiced, chilling calm.

She pushes back her chair, the legs scraping loudly against the floor. She stands, straightens her shoulders, and without a word, walks out of the diner.

I watch her go, my heart breaking all over again.

Omari and I sit there, frozen, the weight of everything we've done suffocating the space between us.

Neither of us say a word.

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A/N

Is it giving second chance romcom or am I too cynical

byeeee

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