Tsunami Tides In My Eyes (An Ed Sheeran Fanfic)

Chapter One

    I knew that I wanted to sing from the moment I first heard my mother sing. She had a very angelic voice and I loved listening to her sing. She used to sing me a lullaby every night before I went to bed. I also used to hear her sing in the shower. I wanted my voice to be as good as hers so from the moment I could speak, I practiced. And practiced. I used to walk all around my house, humming songs I heard on the radio or from friends. My older brother, Dean, would always tease me. He would follow me and try to copy my singing, very off-key. I would always end up laughing and doing something else instead. I guess he knew that it would get me to stop and that's why he did it. 

                                                                     

At first, I had no idea whether I was a good singer or not. My mom told me I was good but she's family so obviously she said that. I didn't get any opinions from my friends because I never had the courage to actually sing in front of them but after days of whining and annoyance, I finally did. They all applauded and said that I was great but I still didn't know if I was. I was determined to find out so one day I decide to look around online for singing competitions. I found one that seemed pretty good and was really popular.

    I had heard of X Factor before but hadn't ever tried watching it. I watched some past auditions and I felt kind of discouraged. Just to get to the Judges' Houses, you has to be absolutely amazing. Simon Cowell was terrifying too, and the things he said were pretty harsh. I could just imagine him saying those awful things to me...

    I sat at my computer desk and just sighed. I knew I was overthinking but I couldn't help it. I wanted to try out but the chances of making it were very slim. I was truly conflicted. Just then Dean walked by my door and saw me sitting with my head in my arms. He came up to me and placed a hand on my back. I jumped up in fright but when I noticed it was him, I calmed down. 

"What's wrong?" He asks while he went to go sit on my bed. 

"Nothing..." I say. He glances at my screen and immediately knows I am lying. 

"Trying out for XFactor I see," he says with a small smirk.

 "Well I was thinking about it but..." I sigh and look down at my hands which are in my lap. 

"Doubting yourself?" He asks even though he already knew the answer.

"Yeah..." 

"You shouldn't. You're an amazing singer," he says, lying down and looking at the ceiling. I sat there with my jaw hanging. Dean hardly ever complimented me. Sure he teased me and bothered me but never really complimented me. He looks at me and laughs. 

"Don't look at me like that. You act like I've never said anything nice to you."

"Cause you haven't." 

"Hmm. Well I have to go finish my homework," he says as he leaves the room.

I just sit there astonished. When I break out of my haze, I look over at the screen again and check the audition dates & locations.