Just An Old Memory

4. The Drummer

- - 5 Years Ago (Flashback) - -

Calum's P.O.V.

2 simple words: Alyssa Waters.

...and 1 simple sentence: I can't stop thinking about her.

How do you tell your closest best friend, that you're madly in love with her?

Trick question, you don't.

"CALLUMMM HOOODD!"

A light smile rests on my lips as I hear her beautiful voice echo from downstairs. In a matter of seconds, she's at my bedroom door and her face is bright as ever.

Seeing my grin, she mirrors it herself and quickly runs in my room with her hands outstretched. I wasn't quite "prepared" for her "attack" and to say the least, I didn't expect her to weigh that much but somehow... as I tried to catch her - she had literally jumped into my arms when she saw me - I tripped and we both ended up in an awkward position on my bed.

It could've been a weird situation but Alyssa just giggled as she got up, helping me in the process.

"Guess what Cal?" She asked almost immediately after, that sweet smile of hers making her look even more amazing. To be honest, she was the most gorgeous when she was smiling...

"Hmm?" I hummed questionably as I sat down beside her on the edge of the mattress.

Should I tell her? I wondered suddenly but knew it was a useless thought. Every time I'm with Alyssa, I've always wanted to tell her how much she really means to me but of course, I just chicken out. I'm such a wimp when it comes to her and I'm beyond shy anyways. 

One day though, I'll admit it one day.

I'll tell her how beautiful I think she is every day. 

I'll hold her in my arms and tell her she'll always be safe with me, that I'll protect her from any harm. 

I'll tell her that I've always loved her... and as we grow older, I'll never stop loving her. 

I want her to know that her laugh makes me laugh, and when she smiles, I find myself grinning like an idiot. 

I want her to know how much I adore her name and how weak she makes me feel when she says mine.

I want her to know that when I'm having a horrible day... just seeing her is enough to make everything alright.

I want to tell her that she's sweet, smart, funny, and absolutely stunning. 

...but most of all, I want to be able to tell her soo much, that it'll take me years to finish. I want to express my love for her and during those years, she'll be by my side the whole time.

I'm barely even 15 and I know nothing about love, but with Alyssa... it feels right and that scares me on a whole different level. Truthfully? I don't think there's anybody else in the world for me but her and that makes me extremely nervous.

"I have to tell you something Aly," I mumbled shyly and she stared at me with her wide confused eyes.

But as much as I think I love her, I know... she'll never love me back in the same way.

"What is it Cal?" She asked with another huge grin and I immediately pussied out again.

I shook my head, "Nevermind haha. You had something important to say too right?"

Alyssa nodded and threw her hands in the air as she fell back on my bed sheets with a wild screech. She covered her face with her hands in hot embarrassment and even being silly, she looked perfect to me. "Yessss, I doooo!" She giggled and my smile stretched wider.