Not Again

IV

"I was in North Carolina and I met this guy that meant the world to me. I loved him and he loved me, at least that's what I thought." I took a deep breath and continued on.

"Things were going great during our relationship, we lasted a year. Until sometimes he made me do things I didn't want to do." I paused and looked at Nash.

He actually was listening.

"He's the reason I smoke one cigarette a day. I didn't smoke yesterday because I tried not to but then I couldn't bare it. He made me smoke pipes, drink nearly every night. He use to drug me, just so he could sleep with me. You don't believe how many abortions I had to have. It's not that I didn't want to have a kid. Sometimes it would be his choice and convince me to get one. Then other times, I didn't want him growing up without anybody to look up to." I couldn't speak. I didn't want to cry because a tear would always slip if I think of him. Until I just bursted and broke down.

Nash came to my side and rubbed my back. He hugged me and I hugged back, crying on his shoulder.

"Sh, it's okay." 

"He sometimes wouldn't even care if another guy talked to me. He would just call me a slut or a whore if I talked back. He hurt me in so many ways."
I cried even more. Nash looked a bit frustrated and nodded so I could continue on.

"Then he changed for some reason. My little brother would always mess around with him. My mom didn't know we were together because she's still the workaholic she is today. But he made it seem like he loved me. He use to apologize and say he would love me forever. The only thing he forgot to tell me is that our 'forever' had an expiration date."

"One night we went to a house party. I didn't mind the drinking or the pipes we smoked that night. Of course I was tipsy but Alex was completely drunk. He told me he would get a pack of cigarettes and I waited at the bar. This random guy tried talking to me and touching me. I instantly left the bar because he started to scare me. I went to look for Alex so we could leave already. I found him in a bedroom fucking another girl." I couldn't speak anymore. It hurt so bad just thinking about him. I was trembling and couldn't bare the pain. Nash was comforting me but now I could barely breathe.

I blacked out after that.

-

I woke up and got a headache. I rubbed my eyes and found myself on my bed.

"2:45." What happened?

"Spencer, you're awake." Nash whispered which made me jump. I found him on the floor with a pillow and blanket.

"You passed out. I told your little brother that you fell asleep early so I watched him for you. Your mom came home a little tipsy so I took care of him. I hid in here. I'm sorry for what you've been through." Nash explained and instantly hugged me and I hugged back.

"Thank you for actually listening." I smiled. "Your welcome." He smiled back.

"You should go home, your parents must be worried about you." I told him. "I already called them and told them I was sleeping over a friends house." He shrugged.

"What clothes are you wearing tomorrow?" I raised an eyebrow. "I'm smart enough to pick some up." He pointed at the pile of folded clothes and his backpack.