Not Again

V

"Pizza will come in 15 minutes." I informed Nathan.

"Can I redeem myself?" Nash asked Nathan. "Okay, but it's your loss." Nathan brushed off his shoulders.

I sat next to them and watched them play.

I heard a phone ring and it wasn't mine nor Nathan's.

Nathan paused the game and Nash went to get his phone from the counter.

Nash went outside to talk on the phone.

"You like him, don't you?" Nathan spoke up.

"I don't want to. I trust him. I'm gaining some feelings but I can't." I shook my head.

"He seems like a good guy. I mean we just met, but I know mom came home from drinking last night. He tried to help. You act like I don't know anything about mom but I do. She drinks more then she actually works." Nathan admitted. I tried my best not to make him find out but seems like I wasn't to good at it.

"Now I know you told Nash about Alex, didn't you?" Nathan raised an eyebrow. I was speechless. I nodded and Nathan did too.

"Mind we talk about it later? I don't wanna ruin this day." Nathan suggested and I smiled.

"Thank you for understanding. You're a smart kid, Nate." I chuckled and Nathan laughed.

Nash entered the house and closed the door.

"Sorry had to take a call." Nash hopped back on the couch.

"Rematch." Nash smirked and Nathan laughed. That meant Nash was screwed.

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"Pizza was great." Nash said, patting his stomach.

"Nash, go home. It's a Friday night." I shook my head.

"Come on." Nash pouted. "You already spent the night, just go Nash." I frowned.

"You hate me that much, huh?" Nash scoffed. "I don't it's just, your parents. They must be worried." I bit the inside of my cheek, trying not to say anything else stupid.

"Fine. Bye Spence." Nash sighed and left and I closed the front door.

"I'm gonna stay up here." Nathan yelled from up the stairs.

I decided to get my phone and blast some music around the house. It was pretty boring and I needed some alone time.

Car Radio by Twenty One Pilots.

"I have these thoughts so often I ought to replace that slot with what I've once bought 'cause somebody stole my car radio and now I just sit in silence."

This song calmed me down. It didn't make me have a worry at all. It's like I was in my own world. Only me and music blasting around.

I snapped out of it when I heard a knock at the door. I lowered the volume of the music and went to go check who it was.

"Hi." I awkwardly said to the random eight guys on my doorstep.

"Is this where the party is?" A guy with light brown hair and brown chocolate eyes asked me. 

"No, I think it's across the street since there are bunch of drunk teenagers dancing on the front yard." I scoffed.

"Good job, Matt." Another guy with a bunch of hair started laughing.

"Shut up, Cameron." Matt laughed and punched 'Cameron's' elbow.

"Sorry about these guys. I'm Jack Gilinsky, we thought this was the party because your music was pretty loud. Have a good night." They left and started laughing and making fun of Jack.

Well a bunch of hot guys came to my doorstep. Great, right when I didn't want to fall for anybody. I shouldn't.

"Fuck!" I kicked the closest chair near me which was in the kitchen.

As much as my foot stings, I broke the chair. Can today get any better?

Another knock on my door.

"Great, I just love people!" I sarcastically yelled.

"Spencer, calm down." Nathan yelled.

I opened the door and found Nash.

"Nash, what did I tell you earlier-"

"I'm not gonna crash here, Spence." Nash chuckled.

"Then, why are you here?" I sighed while rubbing my forehead.

"There's a party across the street. Wanna come?" Nash shrugged.

"I can't." I tried to shut the door after that but Nash held it open.

"Why not?" Nash pouted. "You heard my story, what else do you want from me?" I raised my voice. Shit.

"I-I'm sorry I didn't mean to-"

"No, it's fine. I just wanted to get to know you, not your story." Nash sighed and closed the door.

"Attention whore." I mumbled to myself.

"Spence, you okay?" Nathan asked in a calm tone.

"Yeah, I'm fine." I sighed. I crossed my fingers behind my back.

"I'm gonna be in my room." I walked passed Nathan and ran to my room. I shut the door and straight to the bathroom.

"I'm such a fuck up." I mumbled while looking at myself at the mirror.

I brushed my teeth and dressed into shorts and a random tank top.

I crawled under the covers and got my headphones.

I had to bring this back.

"If you love me, let me go." 

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A/N

The last song I put was

This Is Gospel by Panic! At The Disco

And well until next chapter .