a unexpected turn in a perfect life

im scared to get close i hate being alone

so Jacky doesn't love me as much as Lolita witch i totally don't understand'' i think as I'm sitting in my bunk , so what if shes way more prettier than i am and has allot of tattoos like Jacky, comperd to my 10 , so what if shes pin up and I'm not but i can be .......wait why am i thinking this Jacky already admitted that he doesn't love me as much as his precious Lolita ,

i have Ron and he loves ME and only me, not two people like Jacky . it doesn't even matter that his lips aren't soft like Jacky's or that the way he holds me doesn't--- ok ya i need to stop compering Ron to Jacky ......Lolita's supposed to be coming to tomorrows show , YAY CANT WAIT FOR THAT (note the sarcasm) ugh and Jacky wants me to sing for her like no, why would he even want the two girls hes in love with in the same god damned mother fucking room its like he wants me to rip her cheep ass extensions out of her pin up girl head

'' sup mother fucker'' Nell's says as she opens the curtain and slides in next to me ''nigga its been a while sense we last had some girl time so why don't we talk while we die our hair cuz it looks like you need some change girlie

'' oh ok LETS GO!!! "  me and Nell's wallked over to Ronnie's bunk ''yo ronnie were going to go get hair dye and shit then were gonna go get some stuff pierced k" ok ya but be back in 3 hours

time lapse 3 hours later

so me and Nell's look completely different Nell's has red hair with orange tips she told me that red is ryans favorite color and she wanted to get some and i quote ''ryans fine ass seamen'' and described there sexualness to me in detail and i have never had a more disturbing image in my mind ......im forever scared she also asked me about what was going on with jacky

and i told her everything from the confession to the kiss by the end she almost stormed out of the piercing place and on to the bus to choke Jacky but didnt want to mess up her piercing.we both got our cheeks pierced and we looked fucking sexy,right now we are in the bunk room looking for something to wear so we can surprise the boys with our new looks. nells put on some red stilettos and a short tight black lace dress and mine the same but with stud-ed stilettos...

the boys were getting food so they would be back soon. after we finished we hid in the bathroom and waited for the sound of the guys coming in , ''alex?nells? where are you'' ronnie asked, we both looked at each other and silently giggled ,nells walked out first and the look on the guys face was priceless ''wait tell you see alex '' she told them that was my Que to walk out when i did all attention was on my all there eyes were looking over me in confusion and lust

''hey guys how wa--'' i didn't get to finish,ron came running over to me picked me up threw me over his shoulder and ran straight for the bunks

alex new look in the pic

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