Broken But Beautiful

chapter-13

Aarav's pov-
Present day-

Mistakes are the part of dues one pays for a full life. They are portals of discovery and part of our life.
I have read this somewhere but i have never learnt this lesson in reality, until now. I thought i am a perfect man when it comes to making decisions because i think rationally after analyzing every pros and cons, profit and loss of the situation so i never regret afterwards but I realized I am not so perfect after all.

Leaving from India without telling naina was the biggest mistake I have ever made in my life. I have destroyed her mentally and I am responsible for the condition she has made of herself. I thought she would forget about me and move on with her life but who was I to decide that for her because in reality, if she would have forgot about me then i probably would have gone mad. She feels insecure and worthless because of me. I am the reason for her pain, sorrow, every tear that she shedded remembering me and asking herself why did I left her behind. I couldn't see her in pain now and can't even imagine what she must have been through because of me. I had made the silly excuses for myself, so what if I had to leave, I should have told her and not left cowardly.

Seeing her in pain makes me want to burn the reason for her distress alive but what do I do when the reason of her pain is me. Seeing her tears makes me helpless not knowing how to alleviate her pain, what to say to make her feel better. It rips my heart apart knowing she was carrying this pain with her for ten years. She must have asked herself that why didn't I loved her enough to stay or to tell her, that if something was wrong with her or if she have done something wrong, which is all my fault.

Now that I have returned, I would make everything right. I know I couldn't turn time back to ten years before and undo everything but I would give her everything now and I would be damned if a drop of tear ever again come in her eyes. When she didnt open her eyes earlier today i got scared, It was like I couldn't breath, like someone was sucking my soul of the body. I felt helpless like I would lose her again. Desperation kicked in me like never before, I had never begged in front of anyone but for her I would do anything if it means I would get to see her beautiful eyes.

Currently, we are in the palace. I couldn't stop myself from going to her door seeing the condition she was in. I couldn't help now asking myself, am I the reason of her state earlier in the car because if that's the case then I would never be able to forgive myself. so, gathering all the courage I could and hoping for the different answer I asked her.

"Now angel dont you dare think that i forgot about the incident that happened in the car today. Its time for you to tell me what happened with you before, in the car"

She stiffened in my arms on the mention of that and avoided eye contact like she don't want me to ask her that but I know it was something serious and I can't risk not knowing when it comes to her health.

"Oh it was nothing just a nightmare I wasn't able to wake up from. It was like I wasn't able to distinguish between what was real and what not but thanks to you, I woke up from it"

At the last sentence she turned eyes towards me and they were shining with sincerity and gratefulness towards me. My heart melted at the sight and I caressed her face with my fingers.

"You don't have to say thanks angel, I would do anything for you even if it means I burns in the process."

She watched me intently with so intensity like she was watching my soul. She placed my hands in hers and said with hesitation like she was scared of asking me this.

"Promise me aarav, promise me that you would not leave me again, that you would not leave me alone in a place without you. Promise me that you would be with me always because i am trusting myself with you again aarav, please don't break it this time. I would die aarav if I got another betrayal because I would neither have the energy nor the courage to face that. This time I am begging you please don't shatter my heart again in million pieces or what's left of it as it's not fully healed it."