When I was in second grade I had my first crush on this boy named Ezra. He sat at my table and he was just so funny to me. Nobody knew until third grade when I made a best friend named Jennifer. I had always had trouble making friends and so in third grade my only friend was this guy named Travis. I didn't have feelings for him probably because I still liked Ezra and Travis was a little dorky. I was so happy when I saw that me and Ezra were in the same class again. Then one day Jennifer just sat with us and from there she became my best friend. She was smart and also really skinny. She was literally known for that. There were no arm fat or leg fat she was just so skinny. Soon after that she told me that she had a crush on Travis. We used to whisper about him since she liked him and he would get so mad cause he had no idea what we were talking about. Then she suddenly decided to tell him. He did not feel the same way and I asked him why he was being so rude because when he found out he just stopped hanging out with us and started hanging out with the boys. He wasn't the same anymore though. He told me she was just too skinny and that was the last time me and him ever talked. Me and Jennifer still remained best friends though and she knew I had a crush on Ezra. Later on in third grade she started going out with Ezra. I personally thought that was too young and I was hurt that they were going out even thought she knew I liked him. For some reason I wasn't mad though and thinking back I realize now I would've handled it much differently. When we came back from summer vacation and entered fourth grade I saw that Jennifer and Ezra were in my class again but Travis ended up in a different class. Ezra and Jen were still dating and she talked to me about their relationship a lot. After two months into fourth grade I stopped liking Ezra. It took two years and two months. Me and Jen just kind of stopped being friends for awhile. I had a new best friend named izzie and we also became friends with these girls named Linda and Cami. The four of us were inseparable and me and izzie ignored the fact that Linda just was using us and was just into being friends with Cami. We let her use us I guess it was cause everybody wanted to be her friend and we actually were in a place all girls wanted to be in. Now that I'm older I can't believe I was practically like her pet. Eventually me and izzie just kinda did our own thing and later on me and Jen started reconnecting. At this point her and Ezra were no longer dating. Her and izzie hated each other cause they both wanted to be my friend and they wanted the other one out. I was more fond of izzie and Jen knew it. Jen had gotten so serious and boring. I always told her. Now at that time I had a crush on another boy. But it turned out izzie did too. I never told her. His name was lewis. He even ended up liking jen. I didn't mind about her and Ezra but I was pissed at the fact that lewis liked her. Turns out she didn't even like him. Later on Ezra found out I used to like him. There was this bitch named penny. We hated each other in second and in third we weren't in the same class but in fourth we were. She decided to tell Ezra I liked him. My face was burning read and I said that I didn't. I actually don't know why I was so embarrassed when I no longer liked him. He was in shock though. Penny actually liked him too but he didn't know. I felt like crying in that moment. After awhile Ezra, izzie, jen, and Linda sat in the same table but my table was literally five inches away. Izzie sat practically right next to me. Me and ezra got really close and we started to pass notes but I didn't like him it was just an innocent thing. At first it was awkward for him and jen to sit so close but then they became friends. Ezra kept asking me who I liked but I wouldn't say. During lunch he said fine I guess I'll just sit next to u until u tell me. It wasn't until the end of lunch when ezra gave jen permission to tell me who he liked. It turned out it was me. I couldn't believe it but yet I felt nothing for him anymore. Izzie then ended up liking lewis, ezra, and my cousin who went to that school but was a grade older. His name was Dylan. For some reason izzie gave ezra my number and we started texting but I didn't like him. He and lewis then became best friends since they bonded over the fact that lewis liked jen and ezra used to date her and ezra would talk about me too. I felt so bad for liking his best friend but no one knew anyways.
