Rolling under Johnnie's bed, i curled up onto the floor, where as Johnnie fell into a ball, pretending he had been crying, as i see a tear slip from his eye.
Resist with all of your might to not comfort him, even if he's playing...
Walking out after making sure Johnnie was ok, and letting him know it was about lunch time, i rolled out from under the bed, looking at Johnnie with wide eyes, and an unusually big smile on my face.
"What?"
"Nothing, we should get going..."
"Tell me," Johnnie demanded," if you dont, im forced to make you..."
Dont do this
Do it, just say it. Simple words are all you have to speak. No fucking problem. JUST DO IT.
'what if i mess up like i always do? Because im a screw up no matter what i do, and i know if i dont show any emotion he'll think im a cold hearted... Bitch.'
Opening my mouth to tell him, i obviously took too long as he stood on his tip toes, reaching out to me, wrapping his arms around my neck, pulling me down as his lips brushed into mine. Putting my hands on his hips, face falling hot to match his shade of red, i had gotten him agenst the wall behind us, where a window was on the right. Pushing myself up to him, i felt his ribs poking out to arch his back, grabbing and tugging on my hair, as i lower my face to kiss him, and i have my hands on the small of his back. Lightly moaning, he nips at my lip while my eyes are closed, smiling as i wish i could tug on his lip rings that were taken. Wanting to feel the metal on my lips, i urged to bite his neck in frustration.
Giving in, i hear a rasping breath coming out of his throat, as im looking for Johnnie's sweet spot, finding it. Nipping and sucking on his neck, i feel goosebumps rise on his skin, brushing agenst me. Stopping suddenly, Johnnie looks into my eyes, knowing something is wrong, i look down to him, trying to figure out the impossible.
"L-l-lets just g-go ea-eat," he manages to say.
He's nervous, and not ready. Understanding, i hug him a little, and back up, steel grip of his hips being let go, his arms wrapped around my neck letting go, and watching him walk, i sadly follow, wanting more to happen if there was even an 'Us'.
Not paying attention, i walk out of the door, almost hand and hand with him, and the first thing running through my mind that wasnt going down on Johnnie, was getting caught almost doing it. Alex, her innocent self, standing there, watching me follow Johnnie out of the room, had a questionable look on her face. She could have thoughts about blackmail if she wanted... But who would i be to underestimate somebody? I've been underestimated before, and ive proven people wrong, on almost too stupid and impossible things, no person in their right mind would even try thinking of doing, but my life has been hell so far, so a little cut couldnt hurt. Bruses and scrapes didn't matter. When they were inflected on me by someone else, aka, people at my school thinking it was ok to hit me just because i was 'helpless', and quite frankly didnt give two shits, thought it would be funny to hurt me.
Walking up to her, and her creepy smile, that was just desturbing all in its own, not wanting to even face her, i closed my eyes for five seconds after i told her to not say a word.
Threaten her, not too hard, is it?
Hit a hoe! Slap her. Doesnt matter if shes a girl, just cover it up with a classic move of 'she tried something. Self defense! Tried rape!' look, i dont know. Im not good at this crap.
Just hit her. Its too simple, taking your hand, and slap her across the face.
As Alex tried to take a breath to speak again, involuntarily, my hand swung back behind my left shoulder, back handing Alex. Gasping at my own reaction, getting enraged at myself for doing that, i punched the wall nearest to the left door to the therapy room. Denting it, i look back over to Alex, who Johnnie had helped up, anger sailing through me again, i nervously saw the sight of a busted lip on her face, but a forgiving smile. Practically yelling at the top of my lungs, outraged, i screamed one sentence before i felt a prick in my arm, sending me into a sleepy, calm, mello stage, wanting to close my eyes.
"DONT SMILE AT ME!"
(Johnnie's pov)
Kyle went crazy on her. I have no idea why, but Kyle hit Alex. Seeing her busted lip, laying sprawled across the ground, i had to help her up, not thinking if she would cry, scream, or hit him back. She sat there with her arm around my neck smiling. Why was she smiling? Just then, Kyle made me jump with the reaction of Alex not really caring that she was bleeding.
"DONT SMILE AT ME!" was all he could say before the nurses stabbed him with a needle, and dragged him off after hitting the wall and denting it with a crack.
'Thats not the Kyle i know. What happened?'
"Is he going to be ok?" i desperately ask ine if the nurses, and the remark they gave me was bafflingly misunderstood.
"Unless watc'h is nee'ed he'll go to the padded room, yeah? He'll have to be watched' unless no one can so then well have to put him do'n, yeah?"
"Excuse me, WHAT? Why are you asking ME?"
"Sorry i do'n't know what you're talking 'bout, well have to put you dow' too if you cain'aint ca'lm doun', yeah."
"I HAVE NO IDEA WHAT YOU'RE SAYING!"
Calmly walking away, i was left with the question of what was going to happen to Kyle. Was he goong in a straight jacket? Padded room? Walking to therapy with Alex looped all around me, she kept trying to tell me that Kyle was bad news, and to not trust a guy like that.
'guy like what? He is the best friend i could make... Alex, on the other hand, i could do without.'
"You know what i mean? He just hit me, and youre contemplating if he's a good guy or not."
"Because he IS a good guy," i say trying to not let my temper shiw in my voice ir my eyes, clenching fists at my sides.
'thats not the guy i know in mh heart. He changed, but he's still the same Kyle, and i believe in him that he can do good for himself. Whatever set him off wasn't me, it was Alex.'
"He didnt mean to, i know that for a fact. Dont try to change my mind..."
"I think you might be wro-"
"NO. YOU might be wrong. YOU!"
Grabbing my hand, she pulled me close, and trued to hug me, but pushing her back, she stumbled onto me again. What her problem was, i dont know.
'i just want Kyle...'
