my Boston Bella

Chapter 41

       Devastating decisions......
                    Freens.,,pov.....

I sat outside in the gardens and rang becky.

Hey beautiful did u find Amber.
I was to late presious, I found her face first on the bed unconscious.
Oh my god really, is she doing okay baby, are u okay.
They are still trying to save her I think bec, I'm scared, Did we push her into this.
No, no, baby don't blame yourself you didn't put them in her hand did u, so no it's not.
I'm not sure babe she looked devastated when she left the funeral before, I should of saw the sighns.
Will you stop,........
Stop what bec..
Blaming yourself or us for this, u or I never pushed her over the edge, she knew I was coming back for u at some point babe.
I just wish u told me the truth at the time, I would of understood better still I might of went in witness protection with u but u never asked.
Are you being serious, u would of given up playing football and come with me.
Yeah I would of, you were my girlfriend lover soon to be wife and father of our babes, but of course I never got the option to do so.
Do you hate me.
Hate you for it, yes I do but I love you more I always have, I've never stopped loving you becs.
With tears falling now, I never stopped loving you Iver freen babe I was so lonely and hurt I never gave up hope.
You never gave up hope, but u planed it with amber and she kept from me, I really can't believe she knew and went threw with our marriage, I was even going to let her adopt our twins.
Maybe that was what she really wanted deep down inside, what I had, and she nearly had it.
Yeah I never in a million years thought I'd have you back in my life, I missed u like crazy, please don't ever leave me again, please promise me you won't do that.
I promise my angel, the only way is if I die for real, other that, I really was ill but I had a life saving operation in there.
Aw I love you so so much freen sarocha chamkima.
I love you to Mrs soon to be Rebecca Patricia Armstrong chamkima.
Bye baby see u when u get back
Yeah see u love you
Love you too precious bye.

I wiped my tears that were falling before I went back to wait to hear how Amber is doing.