Sophomore Year and All of It's Lies

Chapter 5: Unbroken Silence

I didn't talk to her, she didn't talk to me. It soon became clear that it was going to be like that for awhile.

I figured that if Ryanne wanted to speak to me, she would.

And she didn't.

So I didn't.

Time flew past. There were costumes that needed to be fitted, lines that needed to be memorized, entrances that must be engraved in my head. I have never worked so hard for something in my life! Most of the rehearsals were everyday after, not on weekends, until 7pm and after that, I went home, had a quick shower, drank tea with lemon and honey while doing homework and would pass out around midnight while I was trying to memorize my lines, stage directions and costume changes.

And I loved it. It kept my mind off of the fact that Ryanne was ignoring me and the growing distance between my friends and I.

It just seemed like things were getting harder. I admit, I normally plan things out for my friends, invite them to the beach, invite them to the movies, invite them over, but with school and the musical, dance and choir, when I was home, all I wanted to do was sleep.

They began to feel like I was shutting them out. Excluding them.

Adam and I still weren't on good terms. I only talked to him because he and Anna were so close.

However, Nathan, my new senior friend, and I became very close. And boy, was he hot. Tall, well built, and he had a 6 pack. Dear lord, amazingness. But, I, of course, only viewed him as a friend.

Lyle and I were dating. But it was sort of secretive, and I liked it that way. My parents didn't want me to date him because they viewed him as dangerous, pushy and overconfident, a lot of bad ingredients for a guy. Besides, Lyle and I liked the sneaking around.

Speaking to Ryanne was difficult, but we managed to have a sleepover with some other friends, a Halloween party at my house happened and everyone from our "group" was there and spent the night.

However, sleep is something that didn't happen for me. I took a short hour nap and once everyone left, Ryanne and I went to Nathan's house, because he was bored and wanted to watch scary movies.

I don't remember how the conversation started up, but soon we were taking about Lyle and I. I had told Ryanne about our sneaking about in secret, mainly because I was trying to get closer to her and gossip grabs any girls attention.

"Well, Katrina and Lyle are a thing again. They're actually dating and it's so cute!" Ryanne told Nathan, giddily.

Embarrassment flooded over me. I really didn't want to talk about this with Nathan, he had a strict No Dating Freshman Rule.

"Yeah, but it's not like it's going to last. I mean, my parents don't know about it, so it's not technically real yet in my mind." My face was hot and red, I could feel it.

Ryanne raised an eyebrow and said, "Oh. So. You're lying to him?"

I inwardly groaned, "No, that's not what I'm... He and I both know that this isn't really a thing. It's more of a fling. Neither of us want to date yet."

"Oh. So, I can tell him about this, right?" Ryanne pulled out her phone, questioning me.

God, just end this. I could see Nathan getting uncomfortable about this conversation.

"Ok, sure. I dare you." I tried shooting her a look, to make her stop talking about it. I was getting annoyed really fast.

Ryanne got busy on her phone and typed away. I felt a gross feeling grow in my stomach, but ignored it. Ryanne wouldn't do anything to destroy this "thing" he and I had. She owes me one from this summer. She knows better.

My phone lit up. It was Lyle.

Ryanne texted me and said you don't care about me. Wtf?!?

Are. You. Kidding. Me. I never said that I don't care about him!

I texted Lyle back.

Send me a screenshot please so I know exactly what she said.

My phone buzzed.

Ryanne: "My parents don't know, so it's not official. I'm still single in my eyes until they know." - seriously what Katrina just said. Lol.

Lyle: well I didn't need to hear that now I feel sad

Ryanne: sorry I was pissed that she said that. I was like, "Excuse me?!?"

Lyle: well I'm depressed now and might go cry. so go away

Ryanne: sorry...

Are you kidding me?!?!

Anger consumed my whole soul and I walked out of the room after mumbling a quiet, "Excuse me."

I called Lyle and glared at the wall ahead of me.

"What?"

"She is just causing trouble, Lyle. I have had one hour of sleep, I am dead on my feet and she was embarrassing me. I care about you, ok? My parents like you. They know I like you, they just wanted to meet you before we started dating officially and you met them yesterday." My tone was harsh and misdirected towards him, but I was just so mad.

"I'm done with you guys for the day. She is a b!tch and to be honest, I hate all of your friends. Ryanne was pushy even when we were dating. If this is going to work, Ryanne's hand needs to get out of your a$$ and you need to stand up for yourself for once, got it Katrina? I don't care that you said that, you're tired and I get it. I knew we weren't actually dating. Now I want you to go in there and rip that gingers head off." And then he hung up on me.

Huh.

I felt numb. Well. A mixture of emotions. Anger because Ryanne's attitude towards me was annoying, but happy that Lyle trusted me. Embarrassed because this has blown out of proportion, but more embarrassed because I knew that if I had a full nights sleep, I wouldn't be letting my emotions control me like this.

I sighed, walked it off, and went back to Ryanne and Nathan.