CONFUSED LOVE

CHAPTER THIRTY

Mikes pov

It's been weeks after Ryder and I last encounter. I must admit I was a bit afraid of him now and am sure he noticed it too so he kept his distance which I was grateful for.

But sometimes I do miss him. I know what he did to me was inexcusable but a part of me missed me. I hope he doesn't send my video to anyone, strangely I trust that he wouldn't do that, I mean if he wanted to he could have done so long ago especially when I called him a faggot with I regret soo much but he didn't.

Whenever I see him, I just lower my head or pretend like I haven't seen him which seems to anger him a lot but he wouldn't react, I wonder why.

Well today I was happy because I asked Lizzy to go on a date with me since it was a holiday which she happily agreed to. I mean I don't blame her, sometimes I wish I could give her all the love she deserves or shows to me but I dunno why but I just can't. Sometimes I would ask my self if I really liked her.

Currently we were outside a simple but beautiful cafe in Michigan, *The Hudson Cafe* in Detroit. This cafe has a lovely atmosphere, with a nod to the city's history and a simple yet elegant decor. They serve up delicious food and coffee, and their menu has something for everyone. From classic breakfast dishes to creative twists on old favorites, you're sure to find something that suits your taste.

I was in a casual yet stylish outfit, I was in a pair of dark-washed jeans, a plain white or light-colored shirt, and a leather jacket. Today of all day I was looking very handsome which only rised my confidence level.

I  added a simple watch, a leather belt, and a quality wallet to complete my outfit. All this was thanks to Lizzy, she practically begging me to go shopping with her saying the bills was on her. I just wanted this date to be simple but she had other plans and am not complaining because it was worth it and I must say she looks stunning today.

As soon as we got inside a waitress quickly came to us to show us to our reserved sit but I didn't reserve any sit for us I think Lizzy was the one reserved the sit. I just sighed looking at her with a faint smile.

We began to converse. We just talked about random stuff and our conversation was just Soo natural and it was funny too.

Soon it was time for us to place an order, I didn't know what to choose so I allowed Lizzy to do so for me.

When the order came it was a large bowl of fruit salad with a colourful mixed of fresh fruits like strawberries, grapes and pineapple and it was only one bowl

"Yes I ordered only one bowl because I wanted us to eat together if you don't mind " she said reading my taughts

"Yes I wouldn't mind at all infact I think it's a great idea" I said holding Lizzy's hand in mine. Everything was going well so far and I was enjoying my self, she seems to enjoy this too.

We began to dig inside our food and lemme tell you the meal was delicious. Lizzy was so into the meal that she had some of the fruit salad smeared at the Conner of her lips. I just began to laugh which caused her to stop her action.

She looked funny, I couldn't stop my self from laughing. I decided to stop teasing her but she looked a little angry which just made her cuter.

"And why are you laughing at me" she said with a little pout

"It's nothing "I said clearing teasing her

"No am sure it was something, please tell me and stop smiling like that to me"

With that I moved a little closer to her, took a tissue leaned over and used the tissue to wipe the stain off her lips. Our eyes meet and I just found myself looking into her beautiful eyes.

I abruptly break eye contact and excused my self to the lavatory.

When I got there I washed my face and begun to cry silently. I couldn't stare in her eyes because I could see the love she had for me, I felt guilty, I felt like a bad person, I mean how could I cheat on her, even if it wasn't my intention I still did and I wonder how she was gonna react after learning the truth.

I never imagined my love life would be like this. What was worse was that I didn't know weather I was straight or gay. I kept telling myself I was straight but a part of me knew it was a lie.

I dunno how long I had been in the washroom until I heard someone banging on the door which brought me out of my taught. It was Lizzy, oh Gosh I totally forgot about her, aaah I can't believe I ruined our date.

I slowly opened the door and saw a distressed Lizzy standing in front of me, she quickly gave me a hug asking me weather I was fine or not.

She was about to break the hug when I hugged her telling her I was sorry.

"Am so sorry Lizzy, please forgive me, I said in sobs"

"It's okay, you haven't done anything wrong so calm down okay, I think we should head home"

We were currently sitting in Lizzy's car with us behind and her driver driving. I could see she had many questions running through her head.

"Am sorry for ruining our date" I said in a bear whisper"

"Mmm it's nothing but why were you apologizing, you haven't done anything wrong"

I sat down in silence, ignoring her question. There was a tick tension in the air, I wish I could just cut it with a knife.

I stared at the city lights through the window and it was a beautiful view, it somehow calmed me down a little. From the Conner of my eyes I saw Lizzy enjoying the view too then I placed my hands on top of hers which brought her out of her taught. I looked at her and smiled, she smiled back at me.

I later realized I had reached my destination. I got out of the car Lizzy doing the same.

Once we were out I smiled looking at my house, there was no place like home indeed.

"So, this is when our little date comes to an end" I heard Lizzy say

"Yes, and am sorry for ruining our first date" I said with remorse.

Suddenly Lizzy did something which shocked me.

End of another chapter, hope you guys enjoy my story so far. This is my first story so it's not that perfect but it's okay, I guess