YOURE SAT ON YOUR DESK, typing away at several different websites to try and search answers for your current ongoing dilemma. A crush, which would normally be described a far stretch for your current situation, but in hopes of easing the feeling of being eaten away by the inevitable choice of having to own it up to the boy who has caused this entire complication.
your research ending up being a bust, you didn't receive the answers you hoped for, instead you kept getting adverts of your own face and some of the answers just tried to coax you to enter a virus into your laptop, until you came across the site—a fan site, to be specific, of itoshi rin, labeled 'sae itoshi's brother' which honestly made your nose scrunch up in slight disgust, but that quickly changed as you looked more into the website.
eventually, you caught yourself just staring at the many photos of the boy pasted into the website, backing up from your laptop, you pressed your palms into your cheeks, a rosy hue growing as your heart rate started to quicken at the thought of the boy. this was unlike you, if anything, you were turning into a madwoman, heart racing for a boy who's been your bestfriend ever since you could remember? after all, he's just a friend.
friends do normal stuff to and for eachother, like how he dedicated half of his goals to you in high school, like how he spent countless hours looking for the perfect gift for you on your birthday, valentine's day—he even made sure to only accepted the gifts you give him on hearts day, the boy even accepted your white day gift.
Rin Itoshi is different, he's harsh and cruel to people he sees 'lukewarm'. which wasn't at all a far stretch of how he treated you, rin took and took, which was foreseen, that's only the result after several years of being spoiled by everyone, from his coaches, teachers, to especially you.
you two were close, you were the only person to ever come close at understanding his wants and needs at the simple glance to the eye, which was what he loved about you, even though for his selfish behavior, even though he was awfully idiotic at times where he'd accidentally disregard your feelings or silly gifts, rin would never let himself make you feel bad for more than a day, handling you with gentle hands, he was careful around you.
"oh, no! i'm thinking about him again!" she shook her head, screaming into her pillow as the blush on her face intensified and she kicked her less on the bed, reaching for a plushie and hugging it close.
"damnit." she muttered, her hair falling upon the silken skin of her visage; covered by the hues of reds and pinks on her cheeks, making her head ache with the slightest mixed feeling of whether or not she really missed the boy or if she just needed something to fantasize on.
she misses him, like a whole goddamn much.
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"i can't wait any longer for the u-20 match, ichisan!" she groaned after thanking the waiter for bringing over their sweets, chocolate mousse for you, and a creme brûlée for ichigo, to which they sighed at your childishness, and right as they were staring to feast on their dessert, ichigo's eyes lit up, remembering something that was dropped off for you at your model agency.
"oh, [name]! i almost forgot, this was dropped off for you by an awfully pretty lady!" ichigo exclaimed, dropping the brown paperbag onto the table, and then pushing it towards you, "she said it was a personal package from a boy in bluelock, which i think you know who!" ichigo teased, letting out a hearty chuckle as they wiggled their finger infront of your face.
she perked up, blinking twice as she gently set her spoon down, then almost hastily snatched the bag off the table, muttering a quick 'shut up' to your manager before opening the paper bag with scattered hopes.
"oh my god!" she stammered out, blinking twice as she began pulling out exactly what she expected to receive from the ravenette boy she was just complaining about.
his jersey. oh and there's a letter there for her too.
"d̶e̶a̶d̶ dear, [name]. . my dearest, [name].
accept the damn jersey and wear it to my game. if no t. i will never talk to u again. im joking. haha this is the only copy of my new jersey for the game. i was not supposed to see it this early,and i have went through hell just to get an extra and i used a whole damn lot of my points to even get this to u. they also didn't allow me to go out myself. something about preparation for the game. :( i wasnt sure if i was supposed to put your house addres on the letter so i put your agency instead. send myregards to ichigo. k bye.
itoshi rin."
you read out the contents of the letter, which was written in japanese, so you had a hard time reading as he never really had good handwriting all throughout his damn life. though, it pulled at your heartstrings with the fact that he went through all sorts of trouble just to make sure you were wearing his jersey for the game. that boy!
"aw, [name]! you've got to wear his jersey! i'll even help you make an outfit!" ichigo nodded, finishing up their crème brûlée after hearing you finish up reading out the letter to your manager, a giddy look on their face.
"theres no other option!" she nodded right after, a big smile growing on her face as she pushed the idea of even wearing sae's jersey to the back of her mind, she wanted to wear rin's.
she then inched her mousse away from her manager after taking sight of them eyeing it, then she neatly packed the contents of the paperbag back into it.
"and- stop staring at my mousse, go order another treat if youd like, i did say i was paying." she furrowed her eyebrows, causing her manager to let out a chuckle, pushing their glasses up.
"well, ofcourse! im gonna splurge you out of your money." ichigo commented, reopening the little site the cafe had for more treats.
"im filing for a new manager." she giggled back, taking a spoonful of the chocolate mousse.
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HII jello in the next chapter i will be writing about what happened to rins side of the story, i originally planned to make it the same chapter, but seeing as theres already more than 1k words on this one alone, i think another chapter to this is better! also tell me if my writing is too short sometimes, im trying to improve on my use of words :) thank you!
