(before Cristina met Beebo)
"Faggot." "Freak." "Loser." "Bitch." they circled my head as I shifted from side to side trying to get sleep. He had said other words that circled around, my brother kept me up, his words striking me over and over again. I couldn't sleep, my family was tearing me apart. I didn't want to be near them anymore. I couldn't take them, I got blamed for everything, called names, yelled at, and tortured. I had invited my friend Mandy over after about 2 hours of not being able to get some sleep, "At least you're dad loves you." Mandy said as I slammed my fist into my dresser. I kicked a hamper over and glared at her, "Are you really trying to own up to me? At this moment?" she scoffed and said "You should've seen and heard the things he does to us." I grabbed my backpack from my closet packed full of clothes. I was planning to run away and never come back, I grabbed my phone, charger, computer, hoodie and some food. She put a hand on her hip and side eyed me, "At least you're dad didn-" I cut her off by screaming at her, "IF HE ABUSED YOU WHY DIDNT YOU CALL CPS OR SOMETHING LIKE THAT YOU LYING BITCH?! HUH?!" she looked at me disgusted and said "Because I was 10 and plus I was strong so I didn't deal with his shit." "Obviously you weren't strong enough because you've got 'scars' everywhere." I said as I rolled my eyes and opened my window, "Where are you going?" she asked rudely, "Anywhere but here." I said smiling and jumping down and landing on the ball of my foot and hands, I stood up and started walking to my back fence to unlock it, I had on black combat boot heels, black jeans, a white shirt, and a black leather jacket, my dark brown hair was tucked into a ponytail with a bandana. I walked past my neighborhood and went into the city, I looked at my watch and saw it was around 1:30 am. I decided to walk around until I found something interesting to do. I walked across a bridge and leaned over the edge, looking into the water, and thinking, the moons light reflected across the waves and I saw a drop come down. I hadn't realized I was crying until I felt my face was wet. I sobbed into my sleeve and fell to the ground, I hadn't been able to cry since forever, I had to make sure my family never saw me cry, it showed I was weak and that they could hurt me more. I was crying until I couldn't breathe. "Excuse me miss..?" I heard a gentle voice say, I looked up and saw a figure, dark brown hair, tall, muscular but not too muscular, wearing a black shirt, blue jeans and dark brown boots. His glasses reflected his gentle brown eyes as he put a hand on my shoulder and helped me up, I wiped my face, smearing my mascara and eyeliner, but I didn't care, I was hurt and broken. I sniffed and said "Y-Yes? I-I'm okay." he gave a gentle look and said "No you're crying...really hard...please, let me help you." I looked at him and said "I need a place to stay...if you don't mind...." he smiled a beautiful white smile and said "I've got an extra room." I smiled at him and accepted his offer.
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I ran as fast as I could, I tripped and hit the ground with a thud, my knees and elbows scrapped up, my face bleeding and my lungs burned. I had tears streaming down my face, I ran for hours, running from a darkness that wanted to become me. I looked over my shoulder and saw it got closer to me. I screamed as I tripped, right as it grabbed me I woke up screaming and sweaty, I heard footsteps and Brendon ran into the bedroom and asked if I was okay, I looked at him panting and quietly cried. He walked over and held me. I flinched at his touch at first....then I felt safe and secure in his arms. I heard him sigh and hum a song, I cried harder and harder until I closed my eyes and fell asleep...
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I woke up with my arms by my face and Brendon's arms around my waist. I turned towards the window and watched the active city of L.A. Brendon shifted and tuned to me, his head rested on my side, he looked out too and I sighed, it was quiet until I heard him ask, "Who fucked you up? Who broke you down until you felt numb? Who wants to see you destroyed?" I thought about it, I sighed and then said, I guess the world does..." He kissed me on my face and went to go change, I stayed inside all day as Brendon went out and got food, did his jobs and bought some drinks. I knew he was affectionate towards me because he saw me crying, or so I thought, we had talked for hours and hours on end. He looked at me and gave a soft look. He grabbed my hand and kissed it. I gave a short smile and looked at him, maybe I could fall for him too...I was just afraid, "I'm afraid to get hurt again..."
