♡ ONLY HIM ♡ ┣ BANGCHAN ┫

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JEONGIN

I leaned against the kitchen counter, casually tossing the ice cream to Hyung. The others were laughing, arguing over something ridiculous, but my focus was elsewhere. I could still feel the weight of his lips on mine, the tension lingering in the air between us.

This wasn't just some random moment. At least, it didn't feel that way to me.

The night carried on chaotically, with Hyunjin's dramatic breakdown about getting dumped and Lee Know's terrifyingly casual announcement of his own breakup. I went through the motions, smiling and laughing at the right times, but my thoughts kept drifting back to him.

He was tense, avoiding my gaze, and it was clear he wanted to put as much distance as possible between us. I couldn't blame him-not really. But it stung.

When Hyung abruptly stood up and said he needed air, I knew I couldn't let him spiral alone.

I found him on the balcony, leaning against the railing, his shoulders stiff. The city lights reflected in his eyes, but he didn't even turn to acknowledge me when I slid the door shut behind me.

"Running away won't solve anything, Hyung," I said, trying to keep my voice steady.

He whipped around, clearly startled. "I said I needed to be alone."

"And I said I don't care," I replied, stepping closer. "We need to talk."

"There's nothing to talk about," he muttered, turning back to the view.

I scoffed, leaning against the railing beside him. "Really? Because it sure seems like there's a lot you're trying not to say."

He clenched his fists, his frustration obvious. "It was a mistake, okay? It didn't mean anything."

My chest tightened, but I didn't let it show. Instead, I tilted my head, studying him. "Didn't it? Because if it didn't mean anything, why did you kiss me back?"

He spun to face me, his eyes blazing. "I don't know, Jeongin! I don't know why I did it! Maybe it's because I'm drunk, or because I'm trying to forget someone, or-"

"Or maybe it's because you wanted to," I interrupted, my voice quieter now.

He froze, his anger melting into something that looked a lot like fear. I stepped closer, lowering my voice even more. "Why are you so afraid of admitting what you feel?"

"Don't do this," he whispered, his tone pleading. "Please."

I wanted to push, to make him face what we both knew was true. But before I could say anything, the balcony door slid open, and Hyunjin stumbled out, drunk and oblivious.

"There you are!" he slurred, grinning.

The tension shattered, and Hyung quickly retreated into himself, his face carefully blank. I followed them back inside, frustrated but determined.

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The rest of the night was a blur of noise and chaos. Hyung barely looked at me, and when he finally announced he was leaving, I didn't hesitate.

I followed him to the door, ignoring the curious glances from the others.

"Hyung."

He turned to face me, his expression guarded.

"What do you want, Jeongin?" he asked, his voice tired.

"I just wanted to make sure you're okay."

"I'm fine," he snapped, his tone sharper than I expected. "Just... leave me alone, okay?"

His words hit harder than I wanted to admit, but I nodded anyway, stepping back as he left.

Emi came to me concerned " we need to talk" she said as she was already dragging me to the couch. She didn't seem that drunk to me with that serious expression she had. " About what ?" I asked as if I didn't know.

" Just sit down" she ordered and I did as I was told. She then continue to talk " don't play with my brother. You were never interested in him what made you change ?" She asked. I myself don't know. Maybe it's the alcohol or maybe I just wanted to get back to her for stealing bangchan hyung from me. I don't know it's all confused right now.

"I don't know noona. I'm confused myself" I finally replied. " Okay. You guys need to talk about this but .. i don't want to see tears afterwards. You don't want to see me mad" one thing I leaned is to never take what she says lightly " understood noona"

Bangchan hyung came and they left upstairs together. Strangely enough I wasn't jealous. There's someone else on my mind right now

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The next morning, I couldn't get him out of my head. I replayed the kiss, the balcony conversation, the way he'd looked at me-angry, scared, but also vulnerable. Not so like him.

I had to talk to him.

I sent the text before I could overthink it:

Me: "Can we talk?"

When his reply came, my heart raced.

Hyung: "Where?"

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At the café, I got there early, nerves twisting in my stomach. When Hyung walked in, looking just as tense as I felt, I knew this wasn't going to be easy.

"Hey," I said, gesturing to the seat across from me.

"Hey," he mumbled, sitting down.

The silence was suffocating, but I waited. He was the one who had to open the door-I just had to make sure it stayed open.

"About last night..." I started, but he cut me off.

"I'm sorry," he blurted out, his words rushing together. "It was a mistake. I shouldn't have-"

"Don't," I said firmly. "Don't apologize for something we both wanted."

He stared at me, his eyes wide and conflicted. "Jeongin, I don't know what I'm feeling. I don't know what this is."

"And that's okay," I said softly, leaning forward. "But you can't keep running from it. From me."

His shoulders sagged, and for a moment, he looked utterly lost. "I'm scared," he admitted quietly. "I don't want to ruin things. I don't want to lose you."

My chest ached at his words, but I managed a small smile. "You're not going to lose me. But you have to be honest-with yourself and with me."

He took a deep breath, his hands gripping the edge of the table. "I don't know where this is going... but I don't want to ignore it anymore."

Relief washed over me, and I felt a smile spread across my face. That was all I needed to hear.

For now.
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