Go Away // Sequel to Stubborn (ThatOneTomahawk)

Chapter 10 - Brooke

The POVs are a little messed up lately, and I'm sorry about that. Idk if I'm gonna do Julio's POV from now on, but this book is ending soon, so idek

Chapter 10 -

I couldn't see in front of me. It was all blurry, like a car window on an extremely rainy day.

My parents didn't run after me; I think they were also in a state of shock.

My thoughts and emotions were swirling in my head all at once. Guilt, anger, sadness, you name it.

I didn't spend any time with him during his last days... I was too focused on myself - I'm a self-centered bitch...

I wasn't found until about an hour later, by my dad, who was driving around looking for me.

He was in just as much shock as I was, but he wasn't crying. In fact, he didn't say anything at all the whole car ride home.

-=+=-

I found myself sobbing, looking at myself in the mirror the day of the funeral service a few days later. My black dress just made me feel worse, as black represented depression, which was what I felt.

I told myself that there's no point in wearing makeup, since I would just cry it all away.

That feeling of guilt that's burrowed in my chest hasn't gone away at all. Why would it, though? I deserve to feel guilty. Instead of focusing on my little brother, I focused on myself. I'm so selfish.

I met my parents downstairs when I was ready. For the past three days, my mom has just stayed in her room and cried, and my dad just ignored everybody, going to work and doing what he had to do.

I broke the news to my fans today, and they all sent me messages of pity. I don't need their pity, but what did I expect? I had to tell them why I would be inactive for a bit.

My friends are all so supportive. Jordan's flying in from Vancouver today and everyone else have been supportive.

But he will probably be heartbroken. He did love Lenny like I did...

I can't think about him though.

-=+=-

More people showed up to the service than I expected. A lot of people from my school were there and so were kids from Lenny's school.

They barely knew him and they're here, mourning his death.

Jordan showed up a bit later, while I was standing next to Elliot.

Jordan gave me a huge hug, and I swear I saw tears in his eyes. I was sobbing.

Jordan went over to the (thankfully closed) casket and paid his respects. If the casket was open... Wow, I couldn't even bear to see Lenny's face there, resting peacefully. I wouldn't be able to handle it.

He didn't deserve to die. His life was only beginning.

Jordan, Elliot and I sat in the back. Jordan and Elliot seemed to be getting along well, since Elliot has been on Teamspeak a few times with us.

So many people were on line, waiting to pay their respects. I looked throughout the line, seeing familiar faces and non-familiar faces. Lots of them smiled me and it pained to smile back.

I was looking through so many faces, keeping that smile on, until I reached a face that made my smile slowly fade.

It was Julio, in a tuxedo, near the back of the line.

-=+=-

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Okay hi, it's been a while, I've been doing a lot of stuff and shiz so sorry

This chapter makes me :(

~Kerri xo~