Between Love & War

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Chay's POV _

We're riding our horses between the thick forest. I managed or should I say somehow forced this man to come with us.

Who cares as long as he's around I'm definitely glad.

"Sir Kinn..  from which do you think we should start our hunting?" I asked. I can see that tension building up on his face.

"Your.. highness.. I think we should keep looking for prey from here. We're almost in the middle of this forest. A few wild deer and boars came across my vision from a distance. We should stop matching and observe." He replied solemnly showing respect.

"Very well.. that's great. I'm desperate for my prey." I glanced at him.

He didn't look back but I know he's feeling my glance.

We started our hunting. Deers and boars are not what I want as my prey. I want him.

Hours passed. It's not that we didn't catch a good amount of deer and boars.

Nevertheless, I'm just longing for him.

It's almost sunset and we can't go back to Castle now. It's a long way though.

We decided to set out camp. Kinn and the other knights cooked some of the meat. It was not that good yet not that bad. Edible enough I suppose.

I know I was staring at him. For quite so long.

"We ran out of water. I'll get it from the river. And 4 of you look after the princess and her fiancé." Kinn took the empty water bags then walked towards the direction from where the water running sounds are coming. I know he did that intentionally to avoid me. However he can't avoid me.

The knights are already dozing by the camp fire. Evelyn is also seems sleepy.

"You should sleep, darling." I kissed her knuckles then looked into her eyes. He chuckled at first then I made her sleep in an instant. The knights are no different.

I immediately followed Kinn's trail.

And there he is. Sitting quietly by the river bed. The water bags he brought is still empty by his side. He's in deep thoughts.

I stepped closer but he didn't notice. I tried to wrap my arms around as he turned suddenly I kissed his alluring lips for a moment.

He pushed me but this didn't work again. I grabbed his wrists down on ground pinning him beneath my body.

"Let go!" His voice is grave and demanding. I don't know how to explain because this is the first time I'm seeing him so strong yet so vulnerable, so dominating yet so submissive.

His eyes are filled with tears like ocean running down like river.

"Kinn..." I couldn't utter more than that after seeing him like this.

"Why you're.. you're torturing me! Why you're giving me this unbearable pain! I just.. can't Take it anymore!! You're the worst creature I've ever met!!! Go away! Go away from my life!!!" He said screaming.

His breathing uneven.

I know I was doing wrong. He didn't mean to face something or someone like me or all this things that happened with him. I used him.

"Kinn... Do you.." I felt my throat went dry. "Do you.. lo-love.. me?" I couldn't help asking.

He turned his face.

"Kinn ..."

"I DON'T KNOW!! I..I HATE YOU!! STOP ASKING ME!!" He replied. But I know. I know very well.

I touched his warm face with my cold fingers. He flinched when I wiped away his tears.

"Kinn.. I.. I do love you." I smiled. And this is the first time I smiled at him with my heart contained and for the first time absolutely genuinely.

His eyes widen. Like he heard something unbelievable or he doesn't want to believe me at all.

However I didn't spare a moment then hugged him. His warm body against mine feels better.

He didn't move a slightest. We stayed there just like this. Within moments his breathing turned even and his heart beat a little calm then I felt his arms around me.

"You... You really do?" He asked with his low voice that sounded so sweet. His breathing falling over my neck.

"Yes, my love.. don't doubt on my feelings." I replied. I had a lot more to say a lot more words were bubbling against my chest but I couldn't utter.

Holding him like this is enough. I heard soft sobbing. I looked at him.

He's crying again!!!

"Ki-Kinn..."

"Why?.. why do you.. and all this.. how is it.. even.. possible.. I.." his words are breaking between his sobs.

"Shhhh ... Shh.. stop crying.. please.. it's ok. It'll be alright. I shall fix everything. I promise. Give me some time. Please.." I caresses his cheeks again.

"You ... You won't leave.. will you?"

"By no means.. I shall never ever part ways with you. You belong to me. We belong to each other." I smiled to assure him.

"Chay.. I.." his puffed eyes are restless. "I need some time.. my mind is not in peace. I.." he hesitated.

"Take all the time you want. I shall wait for you. I promise." I kissed his forehead immediately. I hold him up between my arms.

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