For you - Ashton Irwin

Ch 1. "2 bottles of whiskey"

"I'll miss you so much Blaire." Ashton said giving me a huge hug.

Today was his going away party since he will be traveling the world with his band

"Come on Ashton. Let's have a bonfire !" I dragged him to the way back of his best friends huge yard . We had just got done swimming and playing volleyball. Now it's time for the party.

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"Fuck..... I've already drank  SO much" Ashton slurred into my ear. We are all gathered around the fire in multiple different lawn chairs . Me and Ashton having the best ones.

"Hey Blaire ," Ashton mumbled.
I slowly looked at him. I'm beyond hammered right now and I'm honestly surprised I'm not fighting people because I'm such an angry drunk.

I raised my eyebrows at him and stared at his face.
"I know it's gonna be tough when I leave. But you've got other friends and all of your brothers. You got this."

He was one of those "everything I say drunk is what I won't say sober" kind of person . Such a sweet boy in general.

"Thank you . Promise to keep in touch? "
"Of course"

Moments later, I felt his lips on mine. I couldn't blame him for kissing me . He was drunk.

 You can't blame me for not pulling away. I was drunk too.

The kiss wasn't long or passionate. It was short and simple. After it I got up to grab another Vodka-Cran. As I sat down I saw one of Calums sisters sit in my old spot. No doubt she was drunk too.

I was just going to sit next to her until Ashton kissed her too. Me, being the angry drinker , I pushed her and told her to move. She was two years younger than us so she was a bit intimidated and she moved.
I sat back down and started to chug the drink, probably needing more very soon.
Ashton's hand rested on my leg . He looked at me with empty eyes and and started drooping his eyelids .

Soon enough , Liz, Luke's mom, came back and told everyone to go to the basement and go to bed.

See this is our parties. Our regular group of friends have occasional parties at Luke's huge house. His mom was fine with us drinking or smoking weed as long as we left our keys in her room so no drunken accidents happen. Basically everyone's parents were like that . It was great.

Ashton hooked onto my hips and tried steady himself on to me. Failing miserably and we both end up on the floor laughing our asses off.
Eventually we crawled to the house and make our way down stairs

Earlier today me and Ashton set up a air mattress for us.
I hop in the bed and slide off my pants

Ashton's learned quickly when we were young that his best friend hates pants. And he respects me walking around with no pants on.

Ashton rolled to face me and took a deep breath , letting go all of his stinky breathe in my face.
"Ew ash, find a tic tac " I giggled.

" I don't need one. Good night"
Ashton draped his arm over my hip and soon fell asleep. It was awkward because I was awake and very slap happy. Me being me I started to play with his curly hair.

Ashton stirred from the hair tickling his cheek. I got uncomfortable so I sat up . Ashton had his shirt off so I traced random shit on his back.
"Ash .. Ash ! Ashton Marie Irwin !" I whisper-shouted while shaking him.
"Whattttt?" Ashton woke up laughing like a school girl.

"I can't remember your middle name. Marie fits you " I said .

"Come on let's go" I stood up and grabbed his hand

"Noooo. B" Ashton whined

"Ashton you're coming with me. No excuses. This is your last night . Let's make it last"

Finally Ashton stood up and followed me to the fire escape. We didn't feel like waking people up.

"Uh Blaire" Ashton spoke up. I turned around and met a pair of shorts to my face . I nodded a thanks and he handed me my phone.
We opened the door thing and climbed up the ladder. Then opened up the hatch to outside .

Ashton crawled up after me and slightly pinching my butt.
"Hey! Hands to yourself Irwin " I giggled , too drunk to physically scold him.

"Where are we going " Ashton said softly , still not speaking in a regular tone .
"I'm in the mood for ice cream."

"You're lucky I brought my wallet "

Me and Ashton left the back yard and walked down the road. We live in a small town outside of a big town so we know it like the back of our hands 

Walking down the dark streets Ashton threw his arm over my shoulder.
"I'm gonna miss you so much , B" Ashton said still looking straight.

"I'll miss you too! Promise you won't make a new super awesome best friend?" I say looking down at him.

"Of course not . " and again , he leans down quick enough for a peck on my lips.

I never understood why he does that out of no where. And since I'm still a bit buzzed, I have the courage to ask him
"Ashton, why do you do that ?"

He furrowed his eyebrows.
"Do what?"

"Don't act dumb now, ever since I could remember, you would kiss me randomly while we are drunk . And then look away like its nothing . I don't mind I'm just wondering why in the world you do it ."

Ashton sighed .

"I don't know . I guess it's because I'm lonely ? I really don't know. I mean , I haven't had a girlfriend in so long and when I do they fuck me over , it's kinda just my way to get what I've been waiting for . And I'm happy you're not an annoying best friend and you don't slap me and cuss me out about kissing you" by now, we were stopped and throughout the speech he made he looked around , occasionally scratching his neck .

I nodded to show I understand.
"I get it. In a way it helps me too. You know, just to keep up and not say "oh I haven't kissed anyone since my last boyfriend 5 months ago "

"And that's why I keep you around , you're so understanding "
Ashton pinched my cheeks and led us off.
"Lets go to Calm bank." I suggest , completely forgetting about the ice cream I wanted 15 minutes ago.
He nods and takes us there

In case you're wondering, calm bank is a patch of woods with a creek and whole bunch of home made fire pits, logs chairs and tables and a rope swing. All created by our group of friends
C- calum
A- Ashton
L- Luke
M- Mikey

B- Blaire
A- Aaron
N- Nick
K- Kelsey

It's basically the normal group of people we hang out with. There are some others we see but not as often.
We get to the bank and lay down on one of the hammocks .
All I'm wearing right now is a hoodie and shorts so Ashton snuggles into me to keep warm. We both stare up at the stars.

"When's Kyle coming back?" Ashton sparked the conversation

Kyle is one of my brothers and he's currently in the Air Force .

"Late January." I sighed. He was three years older than me and we were always close.

"He'll be happy to see you. " Ashton smiled. I love his smile. And some day , my best friends smile is going to belong to his wife and greet his kids every morning .

"Ashton I'm tired ." I yawned and snuggled into his chest.
"Go to bed. I'll get you home later ." I nodded not knowing how he'll do it , but I trusted him and went to sleep.