Phil is typing...
Hey
Phil is typing...
Sorry I've been kinda distant.
Phil is typing...
I still don't think it's completely set in.
Phil is typing...
He's really been gone for a month? Doesn't seem like it.
dan is typing...
Are you doing better now, though?
Phil is typing...
I'm not sure...
Phil is typing...
Could you come over again? I miss you being around
dan is typing...
I'll be over soon.
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"You look a lot better than the last time I saw you. And you're not telling me to shut up and go away, so you must be feeling at least a bit better." Dan gave a weak chuckle, as he walked over to Phil and hugged him tightly.
"I feel like he'll burst through the door and forgive me and kiss me again. I keep imagining it. But it never happens. It's never going to happen." Phil whimpered. "I should just move on, that's probably what he would want."
"Phil, you're allowed to grieve. He was your boyfriend. You don't need to force yourself to do something you don't feel comfortable doing just because you think it's what he would have wanted. Just keep taking time." Dan hushed the boy.
"Yeah, but it's silly for me to keep sulking and wishing he would show up here when he's never going to show up here ever again, isn't it?" Phil snapped, and Dan jumped back a bit. "I don't want to waste away my life hoping he'll come over again and that it was all just a bad dream." Phil mumbled as Dan slowly approached him again.
"I don't want you to feel pressured to move on with your life. You're allowed to feel sad, Phil. However long you need to be." He whispered, hugging the older boy.
"I miss him more than yesterday and yesterday I missed him more than the day before. He could be a bit of a douchebag sometimes, but he truly loved me. And I really truly loved him." Phil sputtered. "I'm a total wreck." He mumbled into Dan's shoulder.
"You're gonna be okay, though. Just keep in mind that it's gonna be difficult and, when you are completely ready to move on, you'll find love like his again in the same way you found it before." Dan hummed, trying his best to comfort Phil. "It happened for me..." He mumbled, hinting for the billionth time in the past month his surely obvious crush. "Meet boyfriend at party. Boyfriend eventually finds cuter person to love and leaves... Cute boy kisses me at party..." Phil laughed.
"Are you really sure you like this gross mess that's been hiding away because of a dead guy who probably would have broken up with me anyway?"
"Phil, I really have feeling for you. And not just since the kiss but quite a but before that, too. You're so sweet and kind and anyone would be lucky to have you. I would just happen to be especially lucky. Because we're friends first." Dan spoke quickly. "Also, I've seen you at what you call your worst, and you're still handsome to me."
"How am I supposed to take my time grieving if-"
"Hey, take your time. And know that I'll be there the whole way through as at friend. And if you later see potential in there being an 'us', then that's a decision for when you've got yourself back in a good mindset." Dan squeaked, blushing and smiling at the boy, who grinned back.
"You're absolutely adorable. Thank you." Phil whispered, hugging Dan again.
