Is There More To Love

Chapter 2 - Love or Infatuation

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(Time and chance happen to us all but many a times we miss the queue. When opportunities present themselves, grab them quickly. Do not live your life full of regrets.)

Sabin's POV

"I can't believe I couldn't get myself to ask for her number man. She must think I am lame," said Sabin to his friend.
"I can see that she made such an impact on you", Sabin's friend said laughing.
"The words couldn't just come out. I swear if I am to meet her again I will ask her to marry me. I have gone through so much torture already", said Sabin.
"Hahaha!" Sabin's friend laughed.
"Serious", said Sabin. "It's like you spent just a second with a girl and she already has you wrapped around her finger,"
They both laughed.

"I suggest you pray about it man", Rohan advised " then you can go by her flat and start looking for her block by block, brick by brick, layer by layer" They laughed again.

"She is new there, no one knows her," Sabin replied.

"That is why I said we look for her brick by brick" Rohan teased Sabin.

Kaloa was going round and round in my head. Her eyes looked like water in the sunshine. Her smile was so dazzling. When she broke into a smile, her beguiling, oyster white teeth lit up my heart. It jolt me like an electric current whenever that megawatt smile gave me her full attention. She is absolutely lovely and warm hearted. Dear Lord help me. I was infatuated by her. However the fact still remains and it pains me. I may never see her again.

I could be lost in this trance but life has to go on. Besides there is nothing much I can do about it now. I scratched my head and realising that I had a family diner coming up I wondered if Rohan would like to come

"So Rohan, did you say you are coming with me to the family dinner?" I asked.

"You are pushing it too far man, your parents already think that you are gay." Rohan replied. "You could take Cyra with you?" Rohan teased me, "You guys are literally dating." Rohan supported himself.

"You are the one now pushing it too far." I said trying to defend himself.

My family was not like any other family. Bringing a girl to a family dinner will definitely raise unnecessary questions and give me unwanted attention. I at least need to be so sure about the girl if I am taking her with me.

Is it possible to fall in love with two people at the same time? Can a man serve two masters? Surely, he will love one more than he will love the other. Can love die or is it everyone's excuse to move on? Can love die or is it a stupid excuse to cheat. What is love really? Is it love when it is one sided. Is it love when only the girl loves. So much was going on in my head and then I thought of her, yes Kaloa. For a moment it seemed like time stood still. I blushed. Then feelings of regret came flooding. So this is it. I am never going to know what it would be like to know her more.

I finally decided to go to dinner alone. That was not going to complicate anything. I passed by Mr Sevensen's nursery to get my mum flowers. My eyes kept scanning the neighbourhood, in hope to see Kaloa. A thought came to my mind to ask Mr Sevenson about her but he was acting so professional and distant. He did not even recognise me. He even addressed me as sir. Sir??? Maybe there are lot of clients today, or a lot is in his mind, maybe it is the suit I am wearing. At this rate he will not even tell me anything about her.

At my parents I rang the bell. As I expected, a gorgeous mature woman opened the door. She was dressed in silk and her perfume divine. Now she is smiling at me and kisses me.

"I was worried you were not going to make it," my mum said embracing me.
I kissed her on the cheek. "Lovely flowers for a lovely lady," I said handing her the flowers.
"They look and smell divine," she said.
"You look divine," I teased her.
We both laughed. It's amazing how a mother and a son bond. "Thank you!" she said smiling again.

Almost everyone had arrived and seated at the table. My dad as usual was the person everyone was listening too. The centre of attention. Not only was my dad successful, he was also very wise and respectable. A good lover too. At least he was good with my mum. I learnt all the love from him.

" Does 6.30pm mean anything to you?"
My dad asked, his face stern. In trouble at family dinner, it just doesn't feel right. Then that look from my dad. Oh my goodness, I am in trouble.
As usual, he loosened his gaze and broke into laughter (so did everyone at the table) and stretched out his hands.
"Come hug me my son. I missed you. You stay very close yet very far. Maybe you should move back home?"
He said hugging me. So much love.
"No, no no dad! We don't move forward to move ten steps back!" I gave him my usual answer. Surely after experiencing the freedom and bachelor life, I wouldn't want to move back home. Who would want to?

Our family was one hugging family. So I spent the next thirty minutes or so hugging my siblings, cousins, then my aunt and uncle. They treat me like a child. They have no idea what I have been through, nevertheless what I have done. My cousin, Chahal had brought his girlfriend. How brave of him. Sometimes I wish I could do just like him except that he has brought different girls for the past couple family dinners. My dad looked happy, so did my mum. The whole family looked happy. My little sister Aamirah came and sat beside me. What a sweet gesture. She even gave me a kiss before seating down.

I was busy looking for my little brother when dad said, "Malcom could not be with us today. He is attending a studio arts seminar in Amsterdam."
My dad then cleared his throat and said, "let's pray!". This was our family custom before eating every meal.

Kaloa's POV

"Why would you want to knock at another girl's apartment, a girl who might be the guy's girlfriend??? You want to get yourself killed?" Bree said over the phone.
"Maybe she is not the "girlfriend", I said trying to be courageous."Are you coming with me?" I asked Bree.
"No, no, no!" He said.
"I heard the first No!" I screamed. "I can't go alone," I pleaded,
"So don't go," Bree said.

Maybe Bree is right. Maybe I should let it go. Just like I met him, I will meet someone as well. So what do I do now, watch a movie. Oh watch one of my favourite series, Vikings???

I am trying to focus but I just cannot. My mind is just not here. There are those that give up in the midst of a fight and those that give up before the fight. Which one am I, I tried motivating myself. I found my slippers then my jacket; I do not give up that easily. Giving up before you even start is for cowards. Infect, only those with more than one life here on earth give up. I will only live here once so I cannot afford to give up especially before I even start. Of course, I am not sure of what I am getting myself into, but who is ever sure. It's do or die. I am doing, going to the flats after the other flat, Sabin's voice echoed in my head. Is he really worth all the trouble. I was second guessing myself.

"Hi! Is this Cyra's apartment?" I said after being directed to a couple of apartments by the security guard.

The problem with pessimistic people like me is that once they have put their mind to something, they will see through it despite the consequences, forget the trouble they will endure. Normal is pushing too far. Normal is when you think you are insane to believe such things that no one else sees but yourself. People like us walk by faith and not by sight. In our world, anything can happen.

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