Is There More To Love

Chapter 10 Lost Hope

Frustration is when you cannot get results. Foolishness however is doing something the same always and hoping to get different results.

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Sabin's POV

"Why is she not answering my calls?" Sabin

"And now it's on voicemail." He said

"Why are you asking me?" Rohan said

"It can't be the news of my engagement because I had told them not to broadcast it."

What had happened was in the midst of all this confusion I had actually gone through with the engagement a couple of days back. Realising that I was lying to myself and those around me I decided to come clean and state where I stood. Of course no one took it well. Fights rose between my dad and Mr Adelstein. Cyra had no right to be angry at me but these events did hurt her. I care for her as a friend but I was not going to throw my life away in a union I was going to regret the day I would have said I do.

"Shoot, they announced your engagement on VG." Rohan said

"What?" I said, "but why?"

This was a total disaster. This somehow explained why Kaloa was not picking up my calls. I felt a sharp pain in my heart.

"I must go to her." I said

"This is a disaster." Rohan said

In this life we can't afford to be confused. The first gut is always right but sometimes we are cowards to not follow it through. If you second guess a decision you make, leave it then. What my dad always tell me is that a man knows from the onset of meeting a girl whether he wants her to be his happily ever after or not. This is the same reason why people who get married don't date for long but however this is an exception and not a rule.

Driving down black oak street I already had words planned and how to say them to Kaloa. I had never been in a situation like this before so I wondered how it would end.

At her door I knocked but there was no answer. I knocked and knocked again but still nothing. I tried her number but it was off. I waited for her, perhaps she was to come back but no she did not. One hour, two hours, three hours, no she was not coming back.

Then I thought about it. Isn't life funny. Knowing a person's phone number and address isn't all one needs. That can all change. We need a deeper connection; family, friends. Then I thought of him, yes Bree but I had no idea where he stayed. I had reached a dead end. I remember Kaloa saying they worked together but it was thanksgiving and offices were closed. You know what desperation does, it makes one do the most stupid things anyway. I looked up the name of her company on Google maps and made my way there. Of course, what did I expect? It was closed.

I passed by her house again but still no luck. So I did every other day of that weekend.

Monday I went to her office hoping to see her. No she was not there but Bree was.

"I am sorry but I cannot help you." Bree said

"How do I know that this is not one of your games?" He added, his face stern.

Bree was right in acting that way. But was this the end of me and Kaloa. How can something end before it even began? I was so afraid of losing Kaloa. Maybe I had lost her already.

That feeling of losing someone you love came over me and the pain that followed. I did not even understand where the connection I felt towards Kaloa came from. It is just like you pray for something all your life but sometimes when it comes to pass you are too dumb to realise it. We need to always remember what is good because if we forget how it feels like, even when it comes to us we will be too blind to see it. The world desensitizes us sometimes. I had all these kinds of thoughts as I walked towards my car.

"Sabin!" said a voice I recognised

"Give me your number," Bree said, "If I change my mind I may text you her address."

I sense of relief came over me. I was hoping Bree would text the address. A day passed, a week with still nothing from Bree. I knew I did not have to push it. One cool evening when my life had somewhat came to normal I received a text from Bree. The same night I took a flight to Amsterdam hoping for the best. I had all these kind of thoughts but what is the worst that could happen, I thought to myself.

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