Fury

11

                             Hoseok

“I missed you so much,” Clara’s soft voice whispers in my ear as she leaves kisses on my neck and jaw,

We’re standing in the middle of my room, and she’s moaning softly, my hands resting around her waist just so I can hold her still when she tries to kiss my mouth,

It doesn’t make sense, and it doesn’t make any sense, but I haven’t kissed her or let her kiss me since that damn night where I lost all control a week ago and earlier today,

I close my eyes at the memory of his lips and his hard body and the way he kissed me,

I push all this chaos out of my mind,

It didn’t happen
It doesn’t matter!!

If I think about it any longer, this whole thing might explode, and I’ll be back in my little bubble!

Clara doesn’t notice the subtle rejection and I don’t think she cares which is why I keep her close, she’s fine with the relationship being shallow, she never probes and never asks stupid questions, and she definitely doesn’t ask what happened to my bandaged hand every day like a certain idiot who refuses to give up,

And since I couldn’t avoid her any longer I invited her to my room after dinner at a fancy restaurant, and instead of eating I spent most of the time taking pictures of her and pretending I wasn’t bored

I tried dropping her off at the dorms and leaving, but she wouldn’t accept and insisted I had to see her underwear!!!

But I still would rather we didn’t have to do it, for me sex has always been a constant state of earthly release, I could have done without it and I did it for months, it could have been forever to be honest, and that’s why Clara went to find it somewhere else?
Contrary to what others think, I don't mind, my only problem is secrecy, I told her we could be in an open relationship and she went crazy, demanding marriage that she can't keep up with!!

She can fuck whoever she wants, but tonight she decided it should be me

"You smell so good baby" I try to stay in the moment, I really do, but now that she's called me that I can't help but imagine different, harsher lips spraying kisses on my neck, his lips,

Damn, focus!
She skips the bandage I put on the second mark he gave me in the same damn place, like a savage, only, now, I don’t just have a mark on my Adam’s apple, they’re also all over my chest, dark red and purple, like I’ve been bruised,

Considering what Taehyung did in that corner earlier today, I might as well,

Clara’s fingers grip my shirt trying to take it off but I pull it down, kissing her throat and refusing to let it get stuck in my head again I inhale her feminine scent and try not to throw up, I’ve never liked the smell!

Is that because you prefer a more masculine scent?

The memory of citrus and mint fills my nose, and I tighten my muscles, no

She moans and I hate how soft the sound sounds, she grinds against me and I hate how soft she is, her breasts rub and slide against my chest, but all I can think about is hard muscles, damn!!!

'You're aroused for me, not for her.' I remember what he said, and I feel crazy, damn no!!!

I pull away from Clara with a shove, my mind swimming in chaotic anxiety and annoyance. She doesn’t get the hint and walks towards me again with bright eyes, her blonde hair swaying down her back. I take another step back and raise my hand. “I’m not in the mood for this Clara, sorry I guess I’m just tired from the match.”