him.

Speechless.

A: Oh, ok. No worries. Gtg, bye.

I turn off my phone. Does Jonathan know about the kiss? Is he jealous or is he talking about something else?

I look over to Jackson who is smiling at the sky. He didn't even do anything. He is such a sweet boy. I have known him my whole life, and I know he wouldn't hurt a fly. But that's what scares me most, cause I know he did something more than just drink underage and kiss me.

"Jonathan Cassanova." Jackson turns to me. "What?" "Something happened between you and Jonathan last night. What was it?"

Oh wow. I feel some kind of power that feels more than good. I am being a mature human of the beings. I hope that doesn't mean no more parties.

Jackson takes a breathe. "Amber, I remember everything from last night." My jaw drops. He does!? W-what? Even the kiss? "Oh ok. Even the kiss...?" He nods with his eyes close. I think he might cry. I have lost my power now. I feel little.

"And Jonathan?" I had dared to bring up. "I punched him." He punched him! Wow, and I thought I knew Jackson. "Okay. Let me help you. We were playing spin the bottle and then you kissed Jonathan. I didn't feel good about it. But I played the game and every girl I kissed, I would think of you. So I went to the attic where your dad keeps his beers and drank about 7. Or 12. I'm not sure. But then the coat hanger told me I should fight for you. So I went down stairs as the party ended and looked for Jonathan. He was in his car already but I made him open his window. And then I punched him and whispered something in his ear. And then I collected myself before I went to go see you. And then I kissed you cause I wasn't fair that other people can do it and not me. So then I went home and passed out."

Speechless. That's all I am. Speechless. But I know if I do stay longer and he says one more word I might as well be dead. I will be broken and dysfunctional. Looking down I see Jacksons hand touch my chin and lift my head up. I don't look him in the eye. I get up, call for coco and walk away.

"Coco you are my bestfriend. Did you know that? You don't fight with me unless we are playing and you are very easy to please." I look down at her as she looks up at me with her tongue sticking out. Cute.

I freak out when a car blasts it horn in my ear. To my surprise I see Rebecca.
"Hey bbg, why the long face? Hop in. Let's hang." I smile. I need a girl in my life. So I hop in and I tell her everything. Just like me she is speechless so we switch topic and talk about swim week coming up. Our conversation changed a lot and it was so mindless. I love it.

At a light I feel a hand from outside of the car touch my arm. OMG CREEP ALERT!! "Get away you little piece shit! Turn now if you really love that car!" I hear Rebecca yell at the creep. But it's not a creep. It's Jackson. I look at him now wide eyed. He does the same. But I can't do it. I look away as the light changes and we speed away from him and I see his car in the mirrors back at the light.

I look up to stop the tears. But I looked back and saw a major car accident. My tears only got worse as the sirens got louder. Jacksons car had been tipped over and he his laying unconscious on the floor. I am still speechless.