Chapter 4:
HANNAHS POV:
I buckle in my seatbelt and we start to slowly drive. Its completely silent, but not that comfortable silence, but the awkward kind where you are itching to say something, but know you shouldn’t because that would make it even more awkward. But with Niall, its comfortable not saying anything therefore it is a comfortable awkward silence, if that makes any sense. I should really stop overthinking things. Niall desides to break the comfortably awkward silence and says “So, how have you been?” he smiles a bit, and looks at me, expecting a response. But I don’t say anything. I just keep staring out the window, expressionless.
“Come on Han.” He says quietly
“Don’t call me that.” I snap at him, not looking away from the window. Its dark outside, and it looks like its going to rain soon.
“What do I call you then?” He says softly.
“Hannah.” I reply quickly.
“Okay then Hannah. How have you been? Its been a while since you’ve texted me.” He says, eyes still trained onto the road. That’s when I snap.
“Its been a while since ive texted YOU? You think I was IGNORING you? I wonder, who was the one who left with ABSOLUTLY no warning? When I needed you most, you left me. Just like anyone else Niall. You let me down.” I say loudly, tears in my eyes. I have held that in for two years.
“im sorry Hannah, I didn’t know.” He says quietly
“Well, you would have known if you called me, or texted me, or emailed me, or done anything to make contact with me!” I say harshly. Niall stays silent, tears in his eyes, threatening to spill out. I look back out the window as we continue to drive. After an agonizingly long car ride, with a teary eyed Niall, we finally arrive at our destination. Nandos. A pretty waitress guides us to our seats, Nialls eyes remain trained onto the floor.
“Can I get your drinks for today?” She says with a Sothern accent.
“Actually, we are ready to order.” Niall said with a slight smile on his face.
“Oh. Okay then, order.” She said quickly, Niall winked at her and I see a blush rise on her cheeks. I don’t know why but this makes me angry. He is here with ME. Not her, me.
“We should probably order instead of flirt.” I say rudely interrupting their ‘mingling’. Niall and the waitress both look back at the ground. I roll my eyes.
“Ill have steak and mashed potatoes with a side of chips and a salad please.” I Say slowly
“Ill have the same.” Niall mumbles
“Um. Okay. I-ill be back with your me- food.” She stammers and briskly walks/runs away.
“What the hell was that about?” Niall said loudly. A frown drawn across his face. Niall has never been mad at me, not once. Not ever. So I am taken aback by his actions.
“I-uh-“
“Go appologise to that poor girl right now.” Niall says sternly. I frown and shake my head. Nope, its her fault for being… um… our waitress! Yeah its all her fault!
“Its YOUR fault for flirting with her! Im right here you know?” I say, anger in my voice.
“We are not dating. So you shouldn’t care if I flirt with other girls!” He says forcefully. My eyes widen more and my mouth makes an O.
“I-Im sorry Hannah. I didn’t mean to yell, I was just f-frustrated.” He says gently, but I cant help it that tears rush to my eyes. I turn away and swiftly wipe them away. He cant see me like this, broken. I need to be strong, to show him I don’t need him anymore!
“Hannah look at me.” He says firmly. I turn my head and his blue eyes meet mine, burning holes through my brain. I remember the first time we met, I was so fascinated by his eyes, as I still am now.
“I didn’t mean to-“ He is interrupted by the sound of my chair squealing across the hard ground. I step away from the table, push the chair back in and walk away. Away from my best friend, the only person I have ever truly loved. Everything hurts more when you love someone. I swing the door open and walk down the middle of the street. I hear loud footsteps following me but I don’t care. I know its niall but I wont talk to him. He has to know that I don’t care anymore, about him, or anything related to him.
“Hannah.” I hear him call me, but I keep walking. I feel a hand on my shoulder and I spin around, my hair flailing behind me.
“What do you want Niall! Because its OBVIOUSLY not me, you don’t care, you just want to rid yourself of the guilt, I know how it is. No need to explain.” I hiss, his eyes broaden, and I turn back around to keep walking but he steps infront of me.
“That’s all a lie.” He says, looking at the ground.
“Then whats the truth Niall! Tell me the god damn truth!” I cry, lifting my arms into the air to emphasize my point. He closes his eyes and breathes in and out slowly.
“I-I-I love you Hannah.”
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