Chapter 5:
NIALLS POV:
I could see the shock in her eyes, and that shock quickly turned to panic and fear. What did I just do? How could I be so stupid, telling the girl I love, I love her, when she obviously hates me. How could I be any more stupid? I have to fix this, to cover it up.
“I love you like a sister, I mean.” I exclaim quickly, before she has a chance to run.
I see her face turn from panic and fear to misery and disappointment. Wait, shes disappointed? Does she love me? No, Niall stop overreacting! Why does this have to be so fucking complicated! Ugh! First she was upset when I said it, then she was sad when I told her I ment like a sister? What is that supposed to mean? They should really make a book on how to “decode” girls, it would help me a lot.
HANNAHS POV:
When he first said ‘I love you’ I was surprised and scared. I love Niall, but I could never even DREAM of him loving me back. Im also afraid to fall in love, as silly as that sounds. Ive had my fair share of broken hearts, but it starts to wear you down, like a weight that keeps getting heavier and hevier until you cant help but fall and crumble to the ground. But that moment when he said “like a sister” I almost died inside. It felt like someone grabbed my heart and ripped it in two. And that weight, just became too much to bear.
So I ran.
Like I always do.
In every situation im not comfortable with.
I run.
To where?
I don’t even know.
But I don’t stop.
Rain hits my face, like teardrops falling from the clouds, Reminding me of my broken heart.
I hear Niall running behind me, panting. But even though my lungs burn and my legs ache, I keep running away from my problems like always, because I am a coward.
NIALLS POV:
She ran. She wont stop running! She has been running for 20 minutes without stopping! Its pouring rain and freezing out. My skin is covered in goosebumps, as I left my jacket in the resterant. Smart move Niall. I keep chasing her until I feel as if im not even breathing anymore. I should have listened to her when she told me to work out, get my stamina up. I should have listened to her about a lot of things.
She keeps running ferther and ferther away from me. So I get off the cold ground and start to run again. Why did she run away when I told her I only loved her like a sister. Oh crap.. I get it. How could I be so stupid? She ran because she loves me. Hannah LOVES ME! But I let her go. Suddenly I feel a bolt of energy course through me. I get up and run, faster than ive ever run. I dart down the street and around a corner, where I see Hannah. Sitting on a big rock, hands on her face, her back rapidly rising and falling. Shes crying. I jog over to where she is sitting and sit infront of her. I pull her into an awkward sitting hug and rub circles into her back. She leans her head againced my chest and her sobs start to slow down. She looks up, her eyes still red and puffy from crying. I look down at her and smile weakly, she quickly breaks the gaze to stare back at her feet.
“Im sorry. I overeacted.” She says delicately.
“No, im sorry.” I say back. Breathing deeply. I have to tell her how I really feel, she obviously feels the same way. She got mad when I flirted with another girl, when I told her I only loved her like a sister. She has to love me. She has to!
“Why are you sorry?” she whispers, her voice uneven.
“Because I lied to you, just now I mean.” I breathe. Her head turns to the side, she continues to stare into my eyes. Trying to read my mind.
“I lied. I do actually love you.” I say, holding my breath. She sighs loudly, then frowns again.
“Whats wrong now, love?” I sigh.
“I c-cant love y-you.” She cries. My heart falls out my ass and onto the ground. What does she mean she cant love me? Why not?
“Why?” I say, my voice shaky..
“You b-broke my heart already. I cant afford for it to be broken again.” She expresses. Oh look, there goes my heart, it ran down the street and hit a bus. Wait a second. I broke her heart? Im such a horrible person, I left her when she needed me, I broke her.
I don’t say anything, I just pick up a trembling Hannah in my arms, and carry her all the way back to the car.
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