Forever and Always

Chapter 7: Wrath

*Kat’s POV*

As Maura and I finished putting away dishes my phone buzzed in my pocket.  I whipped it out and clicked on the e-mail notification and my heart dropped to my stomach.  It was the e-mail I had been waiting for and I was suddenly terrified to open it up.  I stared at the screen for what seemed like an eternity before I opened the e-mail and it wasn’t exactly good news, but I guess it wasn’t bad news either.  I had been wait listed for the program, meaning I was accepted but I only got to go if someone else couldn’t.  My heart sank, I was really hoping to go and right about now I was really glad that I hadn’t told Ni.  If I had he would be disappointed for me and would probably dwell on it longer than I wanted to.  I pushed my disappointment aside and told myself that it just wasn’t meant to be, everything happens for a reason right?  I went to go find Niall because I could really use a cuddle now and found him on his bed, staring at the floor lost in thought. 

“Hey what’s wrong?” I asked Niall as I noticed the troubled look on his face.

Minutes drug on in silence before his head abruptly shot up. “Do you trust me?” He asked out of nowhere.

“Of course I do you know that.”

“But I don’t.”

“You don’t what?”

“I don’t know that you trust me.”

“Ni where is this coming from?”

“I just―I don’t know I feel like―like part of you isn’t here, that you don’t trust me enough or something, like you’re holding back.”

“Ni that’s crazy” I said sitting down on the bed next to him and rubbing his back. “I trust you more than anyone else, always have.”

“You sure?”

“Remember when we were five and we were playing on the jungle gym and I got to the top and was suddenly terrified and I wouldn’t come down?”

“Vaguely why?”

“Don’t you remember?  My dad was trying to coax me down and I still wouldn’t move.  So you climbed up to the top with me and said we could do it together and suddenly I wasn’t scared anymore, you held my hand the whole way down.”

“What does this have to do with now?”

“Ni, I didn’t trust my dad to keep me safe but I trusted you!  I trusted you with my life then just as I do now.  You have nothing to worry about.” I reassured. 

“OK. I’m sorry I brought it up.” He said as he pulled me into his side and wrapped his arms around me and placed a kiss on the top of my head.

“Feel better now?” I asked.

“Yeah.”

*Niall’s POV*

“Feel better now?” She asked.

“Yeah.” I lied.

I mean I guess I felt a little better hearing her say that she trusted me, but I still couldn’t get the conversation I had overheard out of my head.  She washiding something from me; I knew it for a fact.  Why would she keep something from me if she trusted me completely?  I did my best to push the thoughts out of my head knowing I wouldn’t get an answer and we went downstairs to finish our movie marathon.  We watched Beauty and the Beat and were about halfway through Pocahontas when she started falling asleep.  She made it through the movie and I had to convince her to go to bed afterward.  We climbed into bed and she clung to me tightly getting as close to me as she possibly could, just as she had while we were watching the movies.  I think I scared her when I brought up her not trusting me.