*Niall's POV*
I woke up next to her, still gripping her tightly. I didn't dare leave her. She was terrified last night. I didn't want her feeling that way ever again. As long as she needed me I'd be there. She started to stir and she fluttered her eyes open to look at me.
"Feel better" I asked.
"In your arms, always" she sighed.
"I'm so sorry" I muttered.
"About what?"
"That I wasn't there to stop it."
"Ni it's not your fault. We weren't talking then, you didn't even know I was in Ireland! You can't blame yourself; it was no one’s fault!"
"I know I guess I just feel guilty, I never did anything when we were younger and I didn't do anything now."
"Ni, you couldn't have helped me when we were younger, no one could've."
"But I knew what was happening, you told me, I should've told someone."
"Are you forgetting that you wanted to, the only reason you didn't was because I asked you not to. I just wanted my mum to be happy."
"I know but-"
"Ni, we were young, we didn't have the common sense and good judgment we do now. My mother's happiness was more important than my own so I didn't want her to know what he was doing; I didn't want to ruin her happiness."
"Did it ever stop? When you moved to the states?"
"Not until...not until he died."
"He died!"
"Yeah, he was hit by a drunk driver...and he was perfectly sober for once...I guess karma really is a bitch."
"How did your mum take it?"
"She decided after about a month that she couldn't live without him and she killed herself on my fourteenth birthday."
"Oh my god, I'm so sorry." I held her tighter. "What happened to you after that?"
"I went into the foster system and lived in group homes mostly; I had a few families here and there."
"Is that how you met Emily?"
"No! God no! She doesn't know! No one knows! I didn't want people to treat me oddly and I didn't want to dwell on it. You know me once I process something I put it behind me and it doesn't need to be brought up again."
"I'm so sort you had to go through that."
"Another lesson learned I guess."
"Still..." I trailed off, unsure of what I was trying to say.
"What are the plans for today?" she asked trying to change the subject.
"Sorry to disappoint, but I have to go in to the studio. Will you be ok?”
"Yeah I'll be fine, I'll call Emily up see if she wants to do something" she reassured, but I was still apprehensive. "I'll be fine I promise!"
"OK. If you say so. But call me if you need anything."
"Course."
*Kat's POV*
Niall got ready and headed to the studio, but I stayed in bed, I just wasn’t ready to get up yet. I rolled over and grabbed my phone to call Emily.
"Hey girl hey!"She answered.
"Hey, I was hoping you'd come over and help me unpack."
"You still haven't unpacked yet?"
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Forever and Always
FanfictionKat Michelson grew up next door to The Niall Horan, but she hasn't spoken to him in five years and she doesn't expect to anytime soon. But when she wakes up in Mullingar and is thrust into his life again, old feelings are revealed. Will she be abl...
