afraid

chapter one {beginning}

intro
I've always been afraid of men over 18. don't call me crazy but I have a perfectly good explanation. you see, in an orphan. my mum was killed by my father, and my brother, well he's in jail because all of the drugs and how he would beat me up. I've been at this orphanage for 3 years now. I'm the weird girl that's always quiet with all the cuts, the one who is always locked up in her room. they were wrong when they say everything gets better but you now what, not gets better once you get there.

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Alison's pov.
"fucking Alison!" Mrs.Ward screamed to me for the downstairs hall. "get your fucking ass down here! visitors are here!" she screamed.

"alright! I'm coming!" I yelled back.

I rolled out is my bunk bed, which was my bed, and flopped downstairs. as I cover my face, with my long brown hair, I herd whispers.

'God look, the sluts up.' one whispered. 'how do you think she's going to scare this next family way?' one giggled. 

ignoring then, I walked into the office, where the family was waiting for me.
"where the hell where you!" Mrs.Ward yelled/whispered.

"I'm sorry, I...I fell asleep." I whispered looking at my feet. "well, it better not happen again!" she scolded. "yes Mrs.Ward." I said quietly.

I turned away quickly and walked through the door to the new visitors. looking through the small window I saw a middle aged woman and man. I stared extra long at the man. seeing if he looked like he would beat me up.

'gosh! why can't I be normal?!' I asked myself.

taking a deep breath, I walked through the door.

"Alison! hi my name is Kris and this is my husband, Aaron" the woman said.

"hello." I said quietly.

"not much of the talker" she laughed. she had a strong America ascent.

as I took a seat in the chair, I noticed that they man was staring at me. oh great...

"so, Alison. I'm going to ask you some questions, alright?" she asked, I nodded.

"ok! so how old are you?!" she asked excitedly. what is with her? did she have like candy or something?

"it's, um, all in that folder." I said quietly, pointing to the folder under her arm.

"oh, I know but I want to here it from you! so..... tell me everything!"

"oh, um ok. uhh, hi, I'm Alison. um I'm 15. I have brown hair and blue eyes, as you can see. I'm 5'1, so ya I'm short. i can play a little bit of violin, but I'm not that good." I smile at her.

"oh go on, tell me about your childhood!" she said.

"I had a horrible childhood. my mum was killed by dad when I was 10. and also my brother is in jail for drugs. I was sorta held "hostage" by my dad for 2 years after he killed my mum. he would beat me up or make me cut if I did something wrong. he got arrested after that." I said quietly.

Kris stared at me with a black face.

"what, you told me to tell you about my childhood." I looked up.

"well, it was so nice meeting you, but now that I think about it, we don't need a kid, right honey." she fake smiled at her husband.

"oh, um ok. bye then." I got up with tears in my eyes.

as I walked out the adoption visitor room one of the girls yelled, "AND ALISON FUCKED IT UP ONCE AGAIN!" as all the other kids laugh and cheered. "oh, go to hell!" I screamed as I ran to my room and slammed my door shut and sunk to the floor.

"who says that to a little girl!" I yelled as tears started streaming down my face.

                                       "why can't I be normal!"

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hi! omg new story! I've had this idea for like ever now and I finally wrote it! omg hi! and in soso sorry because this chapter is soooooooo short but they will get longer. and yes this is a 5sos fanfic, so ya. btw I just saw 5sos live like last week, and 'she kinda hot' is so amazing! and Im in Europe again But I will write on the plain so I can get an update for you lovely ladies!!
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*~Zemmy~*