possession // c.h // ON HOLD

chapter 1 | calum

Calum was the type of boyfriend to hold your hand and run his thumb over your knuckles to soothe you. It was his way of letting you know he was there for you.

He was always there, if not physically, emotionally, over text message, Skype, phone calls. There was never a day that him and I didn't talk. We had to keep our relationship strong, especially when he was on tour.

He always made sure to make me feel wanted, make me feel special, and if he didn't think he was doing a good job, he would try harder.

Calum wasn't overly affectionate, it was just that he had to make the best with me before he was gone for 6 months at a time.

He made sure to spend as much time with me as he could, because we both knew that the time we had together would go by, and we would be spending an agonisingly slow 6 months away from each other.

He loved me, and it showed. Our relationship was everywhere, so it's not like no one knew when it happened.

Everyone had assumed that we had started dating when Calum was famous, or at earliest the start of the bands fame. Peoples reaction to us dating for 3 years prior to the boys massive take off, was what you'd expect- pure shock.

We had the relationship that everyone craved. Everyone saw the way we were together, and not just on television and the Internet. We were named 'Most adorable couple of 2014' and that was no surprise to us.

We thought we were a good couple, it was always just what other's told us that made what we did or how we acted seem to be much more than it actually was.

We weren't special, we made mistakes, we fought, we had our fair share of issues and heartbreak, we just didn't let that break us apart.

We dated for 5 years before the accident. Everyone asked why we weren't married, or at least engaged.

We started dating at the age of 14. My mother said I was "too young" to be dating him, but we stayed together and proved her wrong.

When we found out I was pregnant, we were scared. He had just turned 18 a few months before and his career was starting to take off.

I was worried if he would be there when he came, but he was.

Our son, Matty Hood, was born 3 days before his 19th birthday. I called him saying I was going into labor and thankfully, he was only a few hours away by flight and got here before he was born.

The next day, he asked me to marry him, which I said yes to.

I lost him 2 weeks later. Our baby was 2 weeks old, and he was gone.

Still to this day, I feel like he's going to come walking through the door of our apartment with Chinese takeout asking if I want to rent a couple movies.

Life was never going to be the way it was when he was gone, and yes, I always knew I would lose him, but I never thought in a million years that he'd be gone as fast as he was.

Getting a phone call from Ashton at 3 o'clock in the morning telling me I had to be at the hospital as soon as possible was not something I could have ever prepared myself for. Especially not after he mentioned that it was Calum.

He didn't sound good, so I knew it wasn't going to be something good, I knew it was bad. I had been best friends with Ashton for 10 years, before I even met Calum, so I knew what his voice sounded like when he was worried.