*trigger warning*
Paramedics showed up and I wouldn't let go of Avi. They were telling me they might be able to save him but I knew that he was already gone. Finally, I let go of him and they ran him to the ambulance.
Esther was crying and calling her parents telling them what happened. Avi's parents were on a cruise in the Bahamas and they couldn't get off anytime soon.
I drove Esther to the hospital in my car. We drove in silence, the only sound escaping our mouths was the quiet sobs. She was devastated and wouldn't stop crying. I felt really bad.
When we reached the hospital, I decided to break the news to the band. I took my phone out and paused at Scotts name. Deep breaths, Bre. Deep breaths. After a few rings, he answered.
Scott: Hello?
Me: Scooter! Come quick to the hospital, it's Avi!
Scott: I'll be there as fast as I can! Okay?
Me: Okay!
I couldn't call anyone else. I couldn't. It was bad enough for myself to hear it. Esther and I both broke into hard sobs. We hugged each other for a long time until a huge cheese stick ran through the hospital door.
"Bre, is he okay? Are you okay? Where's everyone else??" Scott yelled running towards me. I broke down and fell to the floor. Scott fell to the ground and enclosed me into a hug. "Hey it's okay, I know. I know."
I sniffled. "He's dead for all I know. He overdosed and left a suicide note. I'm sure I ruined because I dropped it on the bathroom floor and it was ink. But it was because of me. Avi Kaplan is dead because of me." Scott held me close and started to cry himself.
"Shhhh." He whispered into my ear. My sobs turned into hiccups and my eyes hurt.
"I couldn't call the others, it hurt so much to even call you. Thank you for coming here really fast though." I cried. Scott then helped me up and sat me down in a chair.
"I know it's hard for you to do it so I'll tell everyone else okay?" I nodded and buried my face into my hands.
Avi was so amazing, so sincere. So perfect. I wish I saw that from the beginning. Why are all boys so manipulating? I sobbed into my hands until Scott came back. He hugged me and held me close until everyone else came.
When Mitch walked in it was kind of awkward but I realized this was going to happen sooner or later. He walked over to me and I stood up and took his hand. I led him outside and we sat down on a park bench. We sat in silence next to each other until he spoke up.
"You lied to me." I nodded.
"Yes I did. And I'm happy I did because Avi would be totally dead if I hadn't had found him." He looked at me.
"He's dead?" I glanced back at him. I shakily nodded my head. Mitchs eyes grew glossy and he hugged me. It wasn't one of those brisk hugs. It was a tight 'I'm here for you' hugs.
"I went to apologize and he was on the bathroom floor. The reason was because we were together and he couldn't take it." I sobbed. Mitch sobbed back to me.
"I'm sorry. I really shouldn't have taken you from him. I shouldn't have." He cried. We hugged and cried for what seemed like forever. I pulled away and wiped my eyes.
"Mitch, I'm so sorry I have to do this but we can't be a thing anymore. I don't want to hurt Avi. We can still be the best of friends and hang out all the time but nothing can happen between us anymore. I'm so sorry." Mitch shrunk 5 feet.
"But......I love you." I shook my head and a few tears cascaded down my face.
I sighed. "No you don't Mitch. You're confused. You are gay. I was just something to make you forget Scott. I'm not your true love and you don't love me." He started bawling.
"Bre.... Can I please just kiss you one last time? I need to remember what it's like to kiss a girl.... A cute girl.... An amazing girl... A f-" I cut him off.
"Yes Mitch. But once the kiss is over, we are just best friends okay?" He nodded and started to get nervous. We both leaned in and our lips collided. I waited until Mitch pulled away to end the kiss.
"Come on bestfriend, let's go inside." We both got up and went back in the hospital. When we came in I was attacked in a hug.
"Slay you're a lifesaver and a singer who knew?" The stranger said. I immediately knew it was Breanna just by the word choice 'slay'.
"I didn't save anyone...." She let go and pointed at the doctor talking to everyone. I quickly walked over to them and stood there listening to the conversation.
"Yes, two people may see him at the moment. The ICU was rough on him but we pumped everything out, turns out there was a lot of alcohol and drugs in his system. He should be fine in a few days." The doctor explained to all of us.
WHAT!! Avi is alive?? I hugged the doctor right then and there. "I love you. I love you. I love you. I love you. I LOVE YOU!" The doctor patted my back and I let go of him.
"He's in room 321. Remember only 2 people!" The doctor said before walking off. Esther turned to me.
"It's us who's going. We saw him dead so we are gonna see him alive!" She squealed hugging me. I hugged her back. "Bre, you saved his life. You found him." I nodded.
I laughed a little. "I know I'm fabulous." Everyone agreed it was Esther and I who should see him first and that we will take shifts on seeing him.
Hand-in-hand, Esther and I walked up to Avi's room. The elevator seemed like it was 80 feet long and in slow motion because it took forever to finally reach the third floor. The elevator dinged and Esther and I eyed another. They doors slowly opened and then we were off.
Esther was practically dragging me to room 321. She was excited and I was too. My heart was beating so hard in my chest I could've mistaken it for a drum beat.
Esther stopped at a door. I read the sign next to it. 'Room 321.' I closed my eyes and took a deep breath. This is it.
Esther pushed the door open and I saw a horrific sight.
I'm now in even more tears than I ever was in before.
