Sins, not tragedies. / ROBERT DOWNEY JR

chapter 26 // Maybe (APOLOGY A/N)

Three months passed since I've lost my best friend and my child, and no day has passed without me thinking about them.
I still missed them alot, not forgiving myself that I let Stacy go like that.

Sometimes I even thought about killing myself but luckily Robert was at my side, sometimes just furrowing his brows at me but most of the time trying to keep me sane.

Robert started getting better though, he found a new job, got closer to my family and divorced himself from Susan.
It wasn't an easy movement in our lifes, especially mine. She turned into Godzilla and even stalked me for some time until we called the police and she got banned from our lifes.

Thank god.

My parents were happy, concentrating on the my little brother which soon would be born. I was happy for them, I really was.

It was monday morning when I realized that School started again, my life completely new since it started.

Hitting the off-button on my alarm, I yawned and stretched myself, hoping that the school would burn itself.
Still not really awake, I stepped into my bathroom, shocked at what I saw in the mirror.
My hair was completely messed up, my eyes looked like someone injected botox in them and let's not talk about my face.
Did I sleep on lego?

I made myself ready, happy as I smelled bacon and eggs downstairs but not so happy as I realized that it was monday and we had no coffee.
How could people survive without coffee? (A/N nothing against people who don't like coffee)

My parents and I sat down at the table, me immadietly starting to eat, earning glares and funny looks from my dad.
"Are you that happy you're going to school?", My dad grinned, opening the newspaper.
"Nah", I scoffed, swallowing the last bit of bacon. "Thanks for breakfast, love you!", I exclaimed, putting the dishes in the sink and running up, putting on some sweatshirt I haven't worn in ages and black skinny jeans, feeling like a hobo.
but not a real hobo without my messy bun.

I put my headphones in and turned on Wu-Tang, my mind drifting off as I made my way to school.
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Just as the math lesson finished, the bell rang and made my ears hurt since it was always too loud.
Joe smiled at me slightly before taking my hand and chewing his gum like a cow. His steps were quite feminin, his homosexuality slowly coming through even if he wanted to hide it from the bullies of our school.
Suddenly the principal came in our way, making me jump back since I almost crashed against him.
"Good morning, Jones and friend.", joe looked at him with raised brows before crossing his arms offended.
"We have a new coach coming tomorrow, could you please call your class to the welcoming party and make everything ready?",
I bit my lip, curious of who the new teacher was. Joe looked at me with the same look I had, my principal furrowing his brows at us.

I really hoped it wasn't some douche.
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Opening the door of and calling for my parents, I noticed that no one was home which meant party! No, not actually.
That meant movies, food and Robert.
I dialled his number, immadietly hearing a yes since he always knew what was up when I called him at that time.

Thirty minutes later, being on time like never ever, he jumped into the house, almost crashing the vase my mother would always keep in the hallway.
I pulled him closer to me, our noses almost touching and waited for his kiss when he suddenly pulled me upstairs, almost falling.
"For gods sake, what are you doing?", I yelled, laughing and trying not to fall since he was pulling and running.

He slammed his foot against my door, making me scrunch my face. "That's my door and I actually need it, thank you", I muttered, looking if the door was broken.
"and I need you..", Robert whispered against my neck as he stood behind me, his arms stroking the sides of my back.

The thing was that we hadn't any intimate time since the loss, and he was really frustrated about it, just like me.
Something wouldn't work and we were getting really angry at some time, so I really hoped that it would work this time.

Robert pushed me down on the bed, making me smile slightly since he almost fell off as he noticed it wasn't as big as his.
"Ready for something breathtaking?", he asked, his breath tickling my ear as I reached up to wrap my arms around his neck.
We stayed like that for moment before he pulled back, admiration filling his eyes as his fingers brushed the lines of my face, bringing his lips to mine.
I filled the kiss with all my love, hoping that it would bring everything back we've lost in those three months - and it did.
He smiled against my lips, his hands all over my lower back as he tried to bring my body even closer.

He slowly pulled my sweatshirt over my head, staring a few seconds in awe before cupping my breasts. His hands made small circles on my breasts, my hands reaching for his hair.

My hands tightened in his hair, tugging softly until he brought his lips back to mine hungrily.
He slowly lowered his kisses to my stomach, leaving soft pink marks on my supple skin.

My breathing was fast and heavy by now, excitment building up between my legs as I started fumbling with his zipper. He laughed shortly as he undid his zipper, me immadietly reaching for it and stroking it up and down.
I gasped quietly as his fingers traced the line of my panties, pulling them to the side, his fingers immadietly exploring my most sensitive spot.
He growled as I started pumping him faster, kissing me and supporting himself on one elboe as his fingers slowly went in my place, causing me to moan lightly.

In one single motion he replaced his finger with his member, leaving me breath steadily beneath him, wincing when he was fully inside me.
My eyes closed as my hands searched for his face, bringing it to my own as he began to move with me, my hips grinding against his.
His pace increased further at hearing my enjoyment and his own moans joining in.

He moaned loudly as I came with screaminf his name, encouraging him to come with me.
He collapsed right next to me after the fun we had, too exhausted to speak but pulling me closer to him.

"Anything new?", Robert whispered, still out of breath.
"Yeah, we have a new coach coming tomorrow. I wonder who it'll be. Maybe I know him", I said, pushing my head against his neck.
"Maybe", was the last thing I heard from Robert before falling asleep, feeling better than ever.
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I talked to alot people today and yesterday and they showed me that it's not worth it to just give up.
Even though I'm really sad about how things turned out, i'm not giving up.

Thank you for the lovely comments on the previous authors note! ♥

here you have another chapter with some smut as an apology lol.

don't forget to bathe yourself in holy water! ♡