Silence (Ziall Horlik) AU

Chapter 17

Zayn's POV

"This is nice. It's small, but it's nice for you." My mum told me as we walked through the small flat. Niall was holding my hand tightly as we walked through the furnished place. My mum had been trying to convince herself that she was fine with me moving out and part of that was to say that she liked this place even though I knew she didn't. I actually really liked this place and could see myself living here. Of course, these thoughts I had involved having Niall right next to me.

"I'll take it. It's nice enough for a few years of living here and it's close to the university so I could just walk and save gas in my car. What do you think?" I told the realtor, then turned to Niall to see if not would work if I moved here. He looked at me before pulling me out of the living room and down the hall to the bigger bedroom. I closed the door a little behind us before looking at what Niall had to tell me that was so private.

"If you move here, when will I see you?" Niall asked me like he was close to tears. I smiled fondly at him before pulled him into my arms, but keeping him back enough so he could see me talking to him. I had a few things to offer and tell him as well.

"I'll see you as much as I can, which will definitely be allot. But I've been needed to tell you about something I was offered by Juilliard and kind of accepted without talking to you." I told him slowly. I watched his face crumble a little, but he nodded bravely like he was ready for whatever. I took a deep breath before kissing him shortly, then telling him.

"I'm moving to New York in two years from now. They told me I could do that after studying here for two years. But I wasn't planning on moving here or there alone. I was hoping you could come with me." I told him. Niall looked around the bedroom before looking at me with his blue eyes watering up. His plump bottom lip shook a little before he shook his head.

"I don't know what to tell you. I'm not sure that my procedure will work and I'll be able to have a normal life with you. It's only going to be a short amount of time before you get tired of me. I don't want to move in with you and be afraid we'll break up and I'll have to move back home or try to pick up the broken pieces. Then if we move to America and you don't like me, I don't know how that will work. I can't even be left alone at my own house right now, what if I'm still deaf after all of this and can't be alone even when we're together?" Niall asked me frantically as fat tears streaked his cheeks. I smiled at him lightly before lifting my fingers to catch his tears for him. I kissed his lips then his nose.

"This procedure will work and you will be able to live on your own or even with me. I just want you with me every step of the way. I've never met anyone as beautiful as you and I've never wanted to share my life with someone as much as I do right now. If we ever break up, then you're doing the breaking part because you're it for me, babe. I've never known what it was like to look at the same person in a million different ways and love every single way. I'm in love with you, Niall. There's nothing you need to worry about other than to smile for me." I told Niall with my heart on my sleeve. His tears had stopped and his had a smile on his sweet face. He lifted one hand up and slowly signed something to me, making me looked at him confused. He got my right hand and slowly molded my fingers into what he had just done.

"I... love... you." He told  me slowly as he moved my hand in his pale ones. I smiled at him before leaning in and kissing him with all the love I had for him. Just before the kiss started getting heated, Niall pushed me back gently with a cute giggle. I nodded my head to the door and he followed be with his hand laced in mine.

My mum and the realtor were in some type of conversation when we walked in the room. They both stopped and started talking to us about this disision. I ended up signing a few papers that I was going to start renting the flat. I offered Niall to put his name on it too so we could both have this together, but he turned it down and said he wanted to wait until his surgery was over and done with before he did big life things like that. I kissed him allot through signing all these papers, which made my mum remind me to pay attention to what I was doing.