fan account // s.m

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shawn mendes

all yesterday, i was really nervous. i had always liked alex, from the first time i saw her account. i didn't know what she looked like until a couple months after i posed as vanessa, but her personality was all i really cared about.

her looks are just a bonus. i wanted to talk to her as me, but i knew that, her being a fangirl and all, she would freak out if i messaged her or followed her. so i just did it as another fangirl so i could have normal conversations with her.

i was texting her cam and nash's address. she texted me thinking that jack, jack, and matt were going to be there but honestly i want to keep her away from gilinsky. don't get me wrong, he's a really great guy. but i don't want to tell the guys that i like her yet, and i know that gilinsky has a way with stealing girl's hearts.

if i told jack i liked her, he wouldn't try anything, but i don't want to tell them yet. i want to get to know her in person first. then maybe in a few weeks i'll tell them, but not just yet.

alexandra thompson

shawn texted me the boys' address, and i had my mom drive me over to the apartment. although i'm sixteen, my mom doesn't have the money to pay for driving school for me, so i have to be driven around everywhere still.

i know what you're thinking. she can pay for VIP tickets but not driving school? i mean, she technically can afford driving school, but not a car and she doesn't want me driving, or even being tempted to drive, her car.

back to the point, i was in the car with my mom. "don't do drugs. don't drink, don't be stupid. and DON'T have sex."

"MOM! stop i won't oh my gosh please, STOP!" i said. she has always been like this.

"and if you do, then make sure you use pr-"

"yes mom i know!" we pulled up to the apartment and shawn was outside so i changed the subject. "love you too mom see you later!"

"alex, i mean it! you make sure he uses-" and i once again cut her off, not wanting her to scare shawn away. or any of them, for that matter. i quickly shut the car door, and then i followed shawn. he introduced me to nash and cam, which, was 100% unnecessary.

"shawn, you know that i know who they are.. right?" i started laughing.

"right, i forgot. sorry," he said, nervous. i don't know why HE is the nervous one, he's famous, not me.

we hung out with cam and nash for a while, and then shawn went to the kitchen to get a drink. when i was in the living room, there was a knock on the front door.

cameron got up to answer the door, and at the door was standing the one and only, jack gilinsky.

who i've always had a major crush on.

shawn mendes

jack gilinsky. the one person i did not want here, only because he doesn't know about alex, and i don't want him to. but if i don't tell him, he'll start to flirt with her.

i tried to act cool, but the second jack got in, he was staring at her. and it looked like she was staring right back at him.

i don't know how this is going to work, but jack cannot have her.

jack gilinsky

she was attractive. i wondered what boy she was here with, so i started to talk to her.

"what's your name?" i asked her.

"it's alexandra, but i like alex better." she smiled.

"alex, i like that name." i said. "i'm jack!"

"yeah i uh, i kind of know that, i have shirtless pictures of you on my wall..." she said, and then turned red. "i mean, uh, i heard of you before somewhere.. i need to get a drink!" she said and practically ran into the kitchen.

shawn was angry, i could tell. "what's up, shawn?" i asked him. i got a dirty look in response, and he went into the kitchen as well.

"what's up with him?" i asked nash and cam. they said that he never told then, but shawn likes alex and he probably didn't like what she said about having shirtless pictures of me on her wall. i on the other hand, don't mind it.

i can't say anything much else to her, until i talk to shawn about this.