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Chapter 8 ~

Seunghyun ~

I'm in my room right now searching for things that I can do. I'm a bit bored now. Jiyong keeps on appearing inside my mind and I hate it. Why do I have to think about him anyway.

While exploring what's inside my closet something fell down in front of me. I looked at it closer ..

"One Of A Kind "

Oh! This is the one I bought before, this is actually a pair.
I gave the other one to--

"Aish! That idiot!"

Since I've got nothing to do with this stuff, I decided to keep it in my drawer next to my bed. When I opened my drawer I noticed my old phone. Well, I change my phone especially my number since the day he confessed to me.

I tried to open it, and luckily, it works. There I saw a lot of voice mail from him.

I really don't care at all but there's a part of me that was really curious and the last thing I know I sat down in my bed listening carefully at his voicemails.

"Hey hyung .. I'm happy I saw you again. I thought losing you was the worst .. but now I know, seeing you with her, almost making love inside your car was worst than worst. it could kill me ...but I hate myself because I still love you hyung .. >sniff< I think I'm having a colds now . Take care hyung .. and don't do it outside you two might get colds too ."

This pathetic side of him really pisses me of.

"Argh! I hate myself for loving you this much hyung!!"

Is he angry to me or what? He said he loves me then why the heck is he shouting?

"H-hey hyung. Ahm... Eh- ehem.. I'm just wondering if you can go here tomorrow I'm planning to have a party because its my birthday. Ahm, if it's alright with you. I'll try to cook. Don't bother buying me a gift I'm fine with your presence. Hope you could drop by. Bye hyung .. I-i erhm.. I mean... Iloveyou. "

Daesung was the one who texted me to come in our dorm He didn't mentioned anything about the celebration. Although I know it was Jiyong's birthday. So I guess those food were for me. I should've enjoyed it. Oh wait! what am I talking about?

"Hi Seunghyun. I'm leaving now but I don't know why I'm still waiting for you. That maybe you'll gonna stop me from leaving. And at some point you'll realize that you love me too. I'm still hoping hyung ..."

And with that I run. I need to stop him. I don't know exactly where he was going but I don't care. My heart is beating so fast I don't know why. Why am I having a feeling that when I didn't arrived at our dorm on time he'll be gone? for real..

So what if he's going to leave? its nothing to do with me right? I mean I shouldn't care right? He's just Kwon Jiyong, a friend, a leader, the only one who have a courage to scold me, the guy who confessed at me, the guy who can give up everything for me, the guy who loves me really bad, the guy who cares for me, and most of all the guy I rejected ...

I drove as fast as I could all the way to our dorm. I need to stop him at any cost. I don't know exactly my reason is, all I know is he need to stay here beside me. Inside my hugs, my arms wrapped around his body, his head on my chest and my lips on his forhead.

Goddamn it! I need Jiyong! I want him badly!

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The time I arrived at the dorm I hurriedly search for him. But he's no where to be found. Some part of me expect this but just like him I'm also hoping.

Hoping that he will still wait for me.

"Oh hyung! what are you doing here ?"

"Jiyong? Oh! D-daesung.. Where is he?"

"Jiyong? Ah! He already left 2 hours ago. By this time I think he's already at the plane."

So I guess I'm right. I'm late, too late ..

"Hyung! What's that?"

He said while looking at the bracelet I was holding. i didn't noticed that I brought it all the way from here.

"Oh this--"

"I think I saw that already! oh wait!"

He said running to his room then came back after a second.

"This hyung (holding Jiyong's bracelet) I found this the day we celebrated Jiyong's birthday.. outside our dorm.. "

" I gave this to Jiyong a few years ago.."

"So are you saying this one was owned by Jiyong ?"

"Yes, why?"

"You don't get my point, do you?"

I looked at him with a confuse look.

"I found this the day we're talking about him so that only means he heard everything .. So this is the reason why he accepted the project abroad."

"Abroad?"

"Yes! He'll be gone for two years .. "

"TWO YEARS?! two long years?!"

"Why? Is there any problem hyung?"

"N-nothing.. yeah.. Nothing..."

I've lost him already although he's not mine yet..