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Chapter 1 ~

Jiyong ~

"Hey ! whats up with you? Is there something bothering you? I noticed this past few days you were acting weird?" 

Seunghyun asked as he entered our shared room.

Only the two of us was left in our dorm. I'm sitting on my bed and he was standing in front of me.

"Nothing really."

 I said plainly. I stood up and faced the door, I'm holding the door knob and ready to go out but suddenly he pulled me back and now I'm facing him again ..

I really don't want this kind of situation. I'm not ready yet. I'm kinda scared.

Scared of rejection..

"You can tell everything to hyung. Now little boy tell me, did someone stole your candy? Where are those bastard? Did they hurt you? Don't worry hyung will bit them up!"

then he patted my head. Oh for God's sake! Not now. I don't have a shit for this kind of scene. I pushed his hand away.

"I'm not a kid and stop treating me as one! For heaven's sake Seunghyun, I'm already 24 years old!"

He bend down so that our height could be equal. And he put his face in front of mine maybe an inches apart, it makes me blush. What does he think he's doing ..

Aish! He's making this situation even more harder!

"Ssshhh! Just tell hyung what's happening."

After he said that I pushed him away as hard as I could even though my heart hurt a little by doing an action against its will.

"Wooaaahhh! What's up with you?

He asked out of surprise. Maybe I really pushed him hard that almost made him fell but he still managed to stand.

Now he's far from me. But I filled those distance and walk closer to him. I suddenly made a move that I'm sure I will regret. But tonight is the only chance. I need to do this ...

"Hyung I-i... I FUCKIN' LOVE YOU! I'M FUCKIN' INLOVE WITH YOU! I DON'T KNOW WHY OR WHEN IT STARTED OR WHAT IS THE REASON FOR THIS DAMN FEELINGS! ALL I KNOW IS I'M MADLY IN LOVE WITH YOU!"

"Hahahahahaha! W-what are you talking about? It's not f-funny! STOP FOOLING AROUND!"

Now I know his mad. But damn!

"I'm serious .... "

Silence filled our room. And so I move closer to him. So close to the point that there were no space between us.

Suddenly .....

He pushed me hard, harder than what I did. Then a fist touched my face that caused a blood to came out from the side of my lips.

"WHY DID YOU DO THAT! WHY DID YOU KISSED ME?"

He asked angrily. Yeah! I kissed him.

I hug him tight, but again he pushed me away, or should I say he almost threw me. I know his mad right now.

"Seunghyun I'm in love with you!"

I knelt down and tears were starting to run down from my eyes. I just bowed my head and hugged his legs.

"Please Seunghyun! I know this is wrong! B-but now I don't care anymore for what is right or what is wrong all I care about now is you! Please hyung, plea--please! Please tell me that you love me too.Please! Hyung.. "

He took my hands off from his pants ..

"Aish! FIX YOUR SELF KWON JIYONG! "

Then he went out and shut the door closed. Now I'm alone in this room. I laid down on my bed. I don't know why but while crying suddenly I smiled. I felt relieved.

"Finally .."

I said with a sigh. I confessed. Then I fell asleep.

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The same day I woke up by the sounds of commotion outside my room. Maybe the other members were already home. But I was wondering if he was also there. What should I do?

"Oh Ji !" 

Youngbae greeted me with a big smile. Then suddenly all eyes are on me.

"What happen to your lips Ji ?? And your eyes --"

Daesung utter. I didn't let him to finish his words.

"Oh this? Nothing. I j-just.. fell .. and no one tried to catch me." then I flashed a smile, a weak one ..

Yeah I fell.. I fell in love to someone who doesn't have a courage to catch me. And it hurts big time.

When I woke up the next morning. He didn't came home. I know this was going to happen but I didn't expect it's gonna hurt this much.