Different Than Others •C.T.H•

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//Macieiline//

//FLASHBACK//

Me , Michael and Calum..walking through the hallways at school laughing and smiling..Me and Calum next to each other , holding hands.

LATER//

Me and Calum were alone in our secret spot..just talking.."Calum..." I asked shyly. "Yes" He responded...

"Can I ask you something?"

"Sure...anything"

"Promise me..that no matter what..you'll always be there for me..that you'll never leave me"

"I promise..."

But Little did I know...Not all promises are kept..especially by the people you love most

I remember when I was younger... When Me Michael and Calum lived in Peace.

No one bothering us 24/7

Asking us questions about our personal lives

We could walk around in the streets without anyone coming up to me or him asking for an autograph

Normal

I didn't have to lie about my feelings...or at all for that matter.

Now, I lie all the time. Why ? Because if I say something I get all the attention. All these therapists , medication , and so much more you would wonder "How and Why am I still alive?"

" Macie, are you coming along" my brother's voice interrupted my train of thought..

"No...I'm Fine , Thanks"

"Okay. We'll be back later" He sighed and said as I heard his footsteps disappear .

I waited quietly until I heard the front door close. I walked to my bathroom and closed the door. I turned the shower on and pulled the liquor bottle out from under the sink. I sat under the running shower water with the liquor bottle in my hand. I unscrewed the lid off of the bottle and brought the bitter tasting liquid to my lips. The Bitter taste ran down my throat and stung. I thought about my life before I moved to L.A. , back in Australia.

//Flashback//

My mother was out again. Once more I was alone with Her Boyfriend .I hated him so much. He entered my room with the same smirk on his face. "Ready Little Girl?" He said unbuckling his pants , walking towards me. I closed my eyes and lay there in silence as he closed the door and locked it ...

I wish Michael and Calum never left. Especially for so long, but when they visited everything was normal, like before.

I wish they never left so bad...I had no one for all that time. No one to tell my jokes to, no one to hold me when I cried myself to sleep at night , No one to hold me when Daniel (My mom's boyfriend) violated me.

I wish I felt good enough to be alive right now....Everyone had left me...abandoned me for greater things..

I walked out of the bathroom , half Drunk, but able to walk still. I walked to Michael's room and sat in front of the door. I wanted to tell Michael everything , but I can't he won't understand , he's too busy for me. Just Thinking About What Happened When Michael and Calum were away made me cry , I didn't realize I was crying until I felt a tear fall on my hand and right then and there I let all my emotions pour out

//Hoped y'all liked it....what ya think of Macie sad I know but it's her character (for now *evil laugh*)//