Loved You First

Im done with the silent treatment

It's been two weeks since Louis, yet again, stormed out of my apartment. I haven't heard from him since and quite frankly right now I didn't even care.

Since then I have gotten a new job as a secretary at Lisa's workplace. I started last week; the coffee shop threw me a going away party which is odd since I quit. I even had work today and Lisa was coming to pick me up in a few minutes.

Luckily they didn't have a dress code so I just have to slip on a pair of capris and a sweatshirt. I had decided to straighten my hair instead of putting it in a messy bun.

"Karm!" Lisa called at the front door. I don't even understand why she even knocks anymore she can just come it.

"Lisa you can just come in!" I shouted while searching for a pair of flip-flops.

She opened the door, Spot running to her feet. She leaned over petting him; I finally had found some shoes.

"Ready?" She asked.

I nodded and followed her out the door to her car.

"Have you talked to Louis?" She asked as we drove down the street.

"Nope. He hasn't talked to me since he ran out, again." I sighed, watching the outside fly by.

She sighed, "Im sorry."

I looked at her and I couldn't do anything but laugh. I laughed at how she meant it. I laughed at how she didn't mean it. I laughed how childish Louis was being about it. I laughed at how I was taking it all seriously. I laughed at how I just needed to laugh.

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I trudged back into my apartment as Lisa waved from hers. It had been a long day. I ran out to get coffee, I answered phones all day, and I had to show at two meetings. I am exhausted.

I belly-flopped on the couch, digging my face into the soft fabric. Spot came and laid on my back until my phone started ringing.

"Ugh come on! I'm tired!" I shouted while grabbing my phone.

"Hello." I mumbled into the couch.

The person on the line coughed, "Uh hey Karm."

I lifted my head from the couch at the sound of his voice. The voice I hadn't heard in two weeks. The voice that was acting childish. The voice that was giving me the silent treatment. The voice that I loved.

"What do you want?" I snapped. I didn't care anymore. I was so done with him doing this.

"Karm I want to apologize for walking out like I did. I'm sorry for not talking to you either." He tried to get my acceptance but right now I was tired and soo done.

"Louis do you realize that you do this every time she calls you and you're with me? Do you know how much that hurts as a friend? Do you know how done I am with the silent treatment?!" I shouted. I was furious. I was just done. Done with everything. Done with everyone right now.

"I know Karm.. It's just.. I.." He stuttered. It sounded like he was going to say I love you. Or it was just my imagination. One of the two but I think it was me.

"Louis." I said quietly. "I'm done with the silent treatment each time.. I'm done.."

"Karm don't please. I swear I won't do it anymore. Please. Please forgive me." He pleaded.

"Louis I don't know anymore.." I said in a whisper. This was the truth. I didn't know what to do anymore. What to say. What to think. Everything right now is so complicated.

"Please." He pleaded again; his voice was starting to shake.

"Goodbye." I hung up as a lump in my throat formed. That was the hardest thing I've ever had to do. I may have just lost my best friend. But I didn't know anymore. I was done right now. And now I just needed to sleep it off.