Cyber

Chapter 3

When we finally arrive back home, soaked through to the skin from the rain that fell so hard feeling like bullets to my skin, I'm welcomed into my home with the smell of cupcakes baking in the oven filling my nostrils, my mouth is already watering just by the smell. "Mmmm" Sophie and I say synchronising each other. "Hello girls" Mum greets us both with a welcoming smile and warm hugs for us each. "Hi mum" I say in response. "Sophie have you been crying?" Mum asks with great concern while looking deep into Sophie's brown eyes. "Well, just a tad, I'm having an emotional day, I guess it was the weather and the news of you guys leaving" Sophie looks to the ground while letting out a long sigh. Mum looks at me while biting on her lip, I get it from her. "Have you considered coming with us? You know your more than welcome to join us, your like a second daughter to me and Mike, you've helped our Emerald come along way and you've helped her grades to pick up since she started secondary, without you she'd still be getting the 'ol forty percents in all of her tests, I understand you don't have a very good relationship at all with your father, and you are out of contact with your mum, theres no reason why you shouldn't be aloud, like Ronny said "its an oppertunity knocking on the front door inviting us out of this shithole" Mum chuckles while trying to put on a deep man voice imitating Ronny. We all share a giggle within our small circle and the feeling of bond, relationship and love is overpowering in this circle, I love it. I'm not sure if I'm the only one who can feel it, surely not, but I know its there, this unbreakable bond. I couldn't be more blessed to have a mother and father so respectful to my friend. Shortly after, Sophie and I are sitting on the couch watching 'The Notebook' Noah's love for Ali is enchanting, I'm yet awaiting my knight in shining armour even though I'm only sixteen, I've been dreaming of the day he or she will come and sweep me off of my feet, hopefully he or she isn't stuck in a tree or something.I swing both ways I giggle at my wierd thoughts. I look over on to the other couch and Sophie is sound asleep. My mum comes in with a blanket and covers Sophie up, she takes away her cup and bowl where the popcorn once was before Soph devoured it like she hadn't just ate a few hours ago. Its a beautiful rainy evening so I decide to go into the book room and set the fire, there are shelves covering every wall thousands of books just waiting to be read. The thought excites me. I sit in the big cosy chair by the fire and continue reading Harry Potter . The fire is roaring as if its about to speak to me, the heat is like a blanket covering my all, my nerves are calm and peace and happiness surrounds me as I spend my alone time like this. Its a perfect evening. I'm awoken by a salty aroma filling my nostrils, the smell of sausages and bacon make my mouth water, I fell asleep on the chair last night, I'm still in yesterdays tight jeans and string top. I make my way upstairs after tidying up my library and make my way inside my bedroom, the blinds are closed and gentle snores leave Sophie's nose followed by quiet mumbles, her legs are spread right across my king sized bed and the duvet is piled right on top of her. I walk into my wardrobe and change to grey sweats, ugg boots and a navy hoodie. I open the blind and gently pull the duvet back from Sophies face, she turns in response and her eyes squint while adjusting to the light of this new day. She sits up and rubs the back of her neck "Hey" she smiles, her voice is so croaky in the morning its quiet cute actually. "Hey" I smile o"It sure smells nice" she yawns "yeah get up and get dressed and we'll get our breakfast" I walk out of the room and downstairs into the kitchen. Sophie sleeps in her underwear which is an obvious sign shes comfortable in this house. Twenty minutes pass by, and I'm joined at the table with Sophie, Ronny, Dad, Mum and myself the conversation is real and never stops throughout the duration of breakfast. I finish cleaning the kitchen by twelve and Sophie wanders off to the library to read, Dad disapears to his office, Ronny leaves for town, and Mum goes outside to hang out the laundry on the clothes line. I'm left contemplating which room to start cleaning first, I start on the bathroom and two hours later I'm finnished the house top to bottom, it's apart of my daily routine so the house is never impossible to clean, just a quick tidy. "Sophie" I call "coming" she responds. Within seconds Sophie is standing beside me, "Do you fancy giving a walk through town or going yours?" I question "Yeah I've been considering it myself I want to speak with my dad about moving to America" she bites her nail and walks past me. Somethimg tells me Sophie isn't in the best of form again today. I roll my eyes at the true thought and gather up my hand bag and jacket. Sophie returns within minutes ready to walk out the door. "Back later mum just going to Sophies for a bit, all right?" I shout through out the big empty house. "Okay Emerald see you later"she yells.back from upstairs. As we walk through town to get to Sophie's estate 'St.Josephine's' my hopes are held high at though of Sophie being let go to America, but my tbought and hopes are battlin eachother off trying to keep one another down. "I'm sorry I'm causing you this hastle Soph.. " i want to cry because the girl has more issues than a magazine stand. "Its not your fault Emerald" she sounds a little intimidated by my apology before I can speak another word,shes already started on a speech. "Emerald I hate how you think its your fault that your going, if your dad has to work he has to work, he can't just leave you all behind, and you can't just deny an oppertunity of a lifetime, this your chance to stand in the spotlight and show America what you've got, if you have a dream to be remembered worldwide now is your chance. America is home to oppertunities and the only time I'll ever be annoyed with you is if you don't show the world who you really are, get out there Emerald, but don't forget me." Shes stops in her tracks once her speech is over and we're both looking at eachother dead in the eye, its pouring out of the heavans and were standing in the middle of the sidewalk crying, we look like psychopaths. "You know what Sophie, your right, this is my chance but I don't think I can do it without you, your my bestfriend and biggest inspiration and I love how you always know what to say, you are an amazing person, and your dad is yet to see that in you, you are not alone Sophie, your not the only one with silent battles and unheard thoughts" I'm teary again by the time I finnish my rant and Sophie is once again joining me. We make our way back to Sophie's estate, when I pass through the gates there are many people outside their small attached houses some children, some teens, some adults and the majority of them are all dressed in tracksuits, one couple stop arguing to look at me the women is wearing her hair in a grab and is wearing a low cut top she has a hideous dolphin tattoo in the top of her breast and the colour in it is fading so it looks green instead of blue she has black circles beneath her eyes, her boyfriend is standing with his hand on his hip and his wiping his face with his hand hes wearing a grey tracksuit and white high tops around his neck hangs a heavy looking gold chain. I stop myself from staring and continue walking up to Sophie's house. When we arrive at her house, we are not welcomed by anyone, and there is no sweet aroma filling ny nostrils, only the smell of must from the four wash baskets beside the washung machine, there is dirt in every corner of every room and there is dishes stacked up beside the sink, by the looks of this place it looks as if it hasn't been cleaned in weeks, months even. "Dad, I'm home" Sophie calls through out the house. No reply. "Daad Saaoirse Helloo?" She calls "fuck sake" she yells "Sophie calm down, their probably gone to the shop or something" I say "nope" She sighs while holding a white piece of paper in her hand. "Gone to the cinema and for a meal be back later, tidy the house from Dad" "BULLSHIT" Sophie practically screams making me jump "Why are you so angry today?" I question "Because Emerald I'm sick of this house I'm sick of my emotions, I'm sick of not being loved in this house Emerald! Don't you understand how broken my life is, I don't know whats messier my house or my life I just want to get away from here!" She cries out for help and I can tell shes losing her battle with her demons, I'll never really understand Sophie, to everyone else shes just another sad teen going through a great hormonal crisis but in reality, Sophie is an angry, depressed, broken, lost teenager. And its so sad that I cant understand her properly, God I would give my soul to the devil to understand this miserale soul before me.."Sit down Soph" I say while fidgiting with my watch "Huh?" Her face is twisted in all of these emotions that are impossible to read. "Just sit down" She gathers her self up on to her feet and pulls out the wooden chair, she sits right in to the table, slightly slouched with her fingers knotted in her hair, her eyes have a pink and red touch and a purple bag of exshaustion rests benesth each eye, her lips are deep red and swolen and shes still breathing heavily from her break down. I fi her a glass of water and put it in front of her. I sit on the chair and rest my arms on the table after I wipe off the crumbs on to the floor. "I'm Sorry.. for breaking out and letting my anger out on you I" She begins another rant but just before she can, start I stop her "Sophie, you don't have to apologize for your messed up past, your emotions, your random break downs, everything you find difficult about yourself I'm so sorry that I can't understand, and the sad part is I never will understand. But what I will can and always have been doing is listen to you complain about how your tea isn't hot enough, how your insecure about your figure, the way you get mad when your eyebrows don't match, the way you hate it when your phone isn't charged to one hundred percent, the way you like to close your books on even oage numbers, the way you like your bobbles rapped around your hair four times instead of three, I listen to every thing you tell me Soph, I also focus on the little things about you, like the way your freckles go under your eyes and across your nose, the way your collar bones stick right out, the way your hair lines up perfectly at the bottom of your back, you look at all your insecurities and focus to much on the negative side of you personality and appearance wise that you never look at the little things that make you so beautiful and unique, you certainly are one of a kind and thats why you Sophie Rodgers, are my best friend ever. I love you to the moon and back I love you more than all the infinit numbers between zero and one and all the infinite numbers between zero to a trillion. Your stronger than you know snd right now your just going through a puddle on the path, just wait for the rain to clear, be patient for soon you will encounter the sunshine and rainbows you deserve" Do not cry Emerald, do not cry. I look uo to the ceiling to let my lashes dry before more tears roll down my cheeks. I take a deep breath and look at Sophie, shes sobbing into her hands "I love you so much and honestly there really is no better person in my life than you Em, you are a true inspiration and I look up to you. One day you will understand how much of a role model you are to me, I can't thank you enough I don't know how you deal with my shit" She sobs "I don't deal with your shit Soph I mind you like a sister, I guard you like your treasure, because you are your everything to me and your like another daughter to Mum and Dad." Before she speaks i tell her to go take a nap because I honestly think if she stays up another minute i think she could collapse from all te crying and sweating and stressing shes done today, shes probably dehidrated from all the body fluids lost in the past four hours. While she sleeps, I clean the house, dusting top to bottom, sorting out the ware, cleaning all the rooms through out the house, I open windows in all the rooms leaving in fresh sir replacing the musty smell. Its an hour and a half later by the time I'm finished cleaning and Sophie is still asleep, I decide against taking a shower just yet so I go to bed in the spare room, I am shattered and a rest is well deserved, i think of all the things i said to Sophie today and everything else, within minutes my eyes are closed and I drift off to my wonderland. Sleep.