Cyber

Chapter 5

I awake with the suns warm beam glaring at my face. The house is silent, so peaceful, so calming. I check my phone, I'm surprised to read that its only seven. I only got four hours of sleep last night, thats only half of what I need. Its not helpful either because I haven't been sleeping correctly lately, my sleep routine is a mess since school ended. I'll be happy to go back to school in August I miss my friends, I miss my locker, I miss the cafeteria's delightful food, damn it I even miss my moody science teacher, that woman raises my anxiety levels over the bar its not fair, but on the bright side atleast I'm learning, I continue to ponder off of what I miss about school and then it hits me. I won't ever be going back there. I wont ever get to see my friends, I won't get to taste the cafeteria's yummy food experiments, I won't get to have a last music class I wont get to have a last anything. The hairs are raised on my arms and I feel my eyes water up, I feel like a cranky baby. But I totally agree with crying right now about this whole situation. No one can disturb me. No one can hear me, I'm finally alone, stress free, well, stressfull but I feel slightly stress free because no one is here to stop me crying. Its not normal to be okay with that, I know but, I'm always trying to help Sophie stop crying and always helping her with her situations, I always help her and tell her its going to be okay, but now, I'm finally helping myself. I'm glad to finally feel tears stream down my face, I'm glad to feel the familiar sting in my eyes fron years ago when I'd cry to sleep hoping for better days when I had it all under my nose. Now, its perfectly okay to cry, I've always wore a mask in front of Sophie