It's Just Us Now

Chapter 7: A Womens Worth

I made my decision its now or never for me. If i want Daniel he needs to know because after i ran out on him after our first kiss, im pretty sure he thinks I don't want him.

But I really do. And i need him to know this and he needs to know it now. I throw on my LOVE PINK sweat pants with the matching sweater. And a pair of Uggs.
Its late in the afternoon almost 7 o'clock at night. I tell my mom im going for a walk on the river. Where i live its not too fancy but not too poor either. There is this big river that runs right in the middle of the city. Its beautifully disturbing. The water is almost piss yellow. And i say almost because it looks green too. But there is this one spot i like going to just to relax and watch the current of the water swallow and wash away all of my worries.

I take the long way to Daniel's house because I want to make sure that everything I'm going to say to him is going to make  sense. My mind is drowning with thoughts, I am scared and nervous because what if I pushed him away already . I am scared I pushed him so far and all the feelings that he  has for me are gone.

As I am approaching Daniel's door, I see him and this girl standing on the porch. I turned around to walk away but Daniel already noticed me.
"Brooke what are you doing here?"

I really don't know how to respond because it's too much pressure and that girl is giving me the evil eye . This is awkward for me, i knew I shouldn't have never came here.

"ohhhh ummmm Daniel i need to talk to you" i say nervously.
The girl walks over to me and she introduces herself
"hi I'm Natasha you must be Brooke right?"
"Yeah right I'm brooke, hi" i start staring at the ground then to Daniel who is walking over toward us.

" yeah well Natasha was just leaving."

" Well umm bye Daniel, it was nice too see you again. Tell your mom i had a nice time" Natasha gets in her car and drives away.
"Who is she?"
I sound kinda rude asking him this but i dont care.

"oh Natasha , she's my exe girlfriend,she was just visiting my mom, my mom's been real sick lately she was just checking on her"
Now i feel dumb, maybe they were trying to fix their relationship. But even if that is what was happening,I can't blame Daniel after the way I acted that day in the library.
"well I need to talk to you Daniel"
"OK I'm all ears"

I take a deep breath and  close my eyes for a minute.
"well first off I'm sorry for how I ran out of the library that day. It was just unexpected I didn't expect to kiss you and and I didn't expect you to like it, I also didn't expect to like you."
I pause for a moment and j can't help but too feel so proud of myself for being brave and telling him how I truly feel.
"OK Daniel you hear me I like you I really really like you and I can't help that you are always on my mind. I thought maybe just being friends with you would stop me from thinking as you as more than a friend. I thought maybe you probably don't feel the same way for me. But honestly I don't care if you feel the same way about  me I just need you to know how I feel about you. And if you feel the same way about me even better, but I can't just sit here and have feelings for such an amazing person and not be able to let them know how I feel. And I don't know if it's too late for me but im hoping that maybe its not."

At this moment in my life i can truly say that I never wanted and needed anyone like this ever. Daniel is just standing there looking at me without saying a sound. The silence is killing me.
"why don't you care if I feel the same way about you". He finally breaks the silence.
"because even if you don't feel the same way about me at least I know that I was the one who cared in the end."

"and you think I don't care.And you think I don't feel the same way about you, Brooke I am absolutely positively in love with you. You are the only person who I think about all the time...."
As Daniel is talking i start feeling relieved, I start feeling as though this was all worth it. All the guessing all the waiting and all the anticipation is all worth it for this moment right now, right here.
" Some people don't believe in love at first sight, dam I didn't either but until I seen you at Jessy's locker I just knew you had to be mine"
I fill in the space between and i put my hand over his check and he grabs my hips and pulls me closer to him.

Our lips touch and he sticks his tongue in my mouth, and I gently massage his tounge with mine. We stay like this for a good five minutes. The rain drops is what makes us stop.
"Come inside Brooke come on"
Daniel leads me inside his house and brings me to his room.
" about that day in the library, I'm sorry I got freaked out because I finally stop lying to myself about the feelings I have for you and that scared the shit out of me"
"Brooke what are you so scared of?". I think to myself for a second as Daniel takes off my Uggs and unzips my sweater and hangs it in his closet to dry. But really,what am I really scared of?
"Brooke I would never hurt you I will never break your heart because I know if you broke mine I wouldn't be the same anymore. I wouldn't be able to live with a broken heart by you, it will kill me"
I start smiling, as i take my curly hair and put it in a high bun on top of my head. I pull him closer to me and our lips meet again for a third time.
TO BE CONTINUED.....,,,