When did BDSM begin? To want to dominate over another human i suspect is an ancient feeling, but when did this become a sexual aspect? Did someone in egypt wip someone and jiz in their loincloth? We may not know exactly how far back this goes but we do have an idea almost every woman loves. The Kama Sutra.
The Kama Sutra was believed to be written in 400 C.E.describing delectable ways to heighten your sex experience form slow pushes to fast pace biting, lashing, tearing at each other as if you couldn't get enough. So now that we know where what about why? Why did this happen to come about? Everything happens for a reason they say well I believe the reason for this is in our own instinct. We all want to have power, order, love, riveting sex, its our internal hunger that drives us to do what we do. We are all animals fighting for the same scrap of meat.
We invented so many ways to get off from erotic novels to tiny hideable vibraters and dildos with every spectrum of toys in between. So I went out and found a couple I used to use when i was too bashful to reveal my real wants and needs. The vesper. A sleek bullet shaped vibrater that doubles as a necklace. it isnt the strongest out there but with the right image it totally works.
The durex play allure was big enough for my purse and wasn't loud in case it accidentally got turned on but if it did boy you can feel it. Lelo ora was a little expensive but worth it. This simulated oral sex and with a good heat when in motion lube was great for a wet night. I used a simple clover nipple clamp under a hoodie so when the fabric would pull across it would tug at my nipples. All of these can be done by anyone. Even wearing my collar made me horny at times.
So say you've done these things and ventured in public with them always feeling as if someone knows your secret but knowing no one has a clue. No it is time to upgrade. My first real toys in our venture would be some leather cuffs. I bought small leather connecting cuffs and cuffed my hands and feet together got the perfect position and decided well if I dont have a man I got two options. Hire one or spend a grand on a fucking machine.
The fucking machine was cheaper and more convenient. Then I got twisted. I used to slap my thighs with metal or wood rulers then I got paddles and canes, a flogger here and there, rope and tempered wax candles. I would heat up the metal ruler over one of the candles and press it against my skin just feeling that burning sensation all over. Then I changed my wardrobe. I never really changed my style I just let the inner skank dress me sometimes. We all have that inner skank and if you dont you may be to nice of a person. Well my inner skank says black leather & purple outfits, even told me to put nothing but some emerald green lingerie and a long trenchcoat on and go out. You see it is moments like this when we question who we are as people.
I decided it wasn't enough to do all this on my own. So I went looking on Craigslist. I'm joking do not go to Craigslist. I looked on the internet and on a website called Fetlife which I am a proud member of. I found a few peoe willing to join me for a quick treat and ob was it a treat!
So now what? Fuck myself? Yeah that's fun for a while but sometimes you really just need another person. I told my best friend and hit those people from Fetlife.com up some more and fucked like crazy and why? Because I felt like it. They call them sex addicts for a reason and while I think we are all addicts at one time, I don't think we all stay that way.
